Saturday, July 16, 2011

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

learning to be strong

I Learn To Be Strong
Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with her soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

p/s :

Please , dont do d same mistake,
I da try delete all bout u,
but baby,
my mind,
my heart,
juz u,
only u.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Parah parah~

U know..

A boy like me wont take things seriously..
Sumtimes i act like a fool coz im ufudangfang rite..

im not that strong

Im smiling ,
beneath my heart im in agony
im laughing ,
beneath my heart im crying

If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
If you hold my hands

Could we stay right there
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry

All this time I've loved you n missed you
you are true peace
makes my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul

" ble kte tau org tu yg kte cari slame nih
mmg susah nk lepaskan dye

walau pom org tu ckp tidak

kte still go on n on n give my all
hey kamu ,
hanya kamu dan masa penghalangnya
bila tiba waktunya , i akan bersedia
menghadapi perubahan itu.
i harap tiada benci diantara kita
pemikiran dapat mengubahnya , hanya kamu.. "

p/s :

hati i terluka , hati i tersiksa
dah parah dah i nih

Monday, July 11, 2011

My Black Star

Well ...

:') i juz can smile..its too late for me..
my fault, - i shud befren wit his parents 1st..
n im not gud enough to be a man..

refer to my older entry titled " The Other Man"
i dun know how a man can be like other man..
it's so cruel..


story about me..
i mostly known as a man with star.
obsess wit stars..
baju bintang , belt bintang , rantai bintang n hati pon ala² bintang..

dulu time i wild sket..sket je x byk pon..
urm.moderate je kot i punye wild tu..
i ade rantai colour woh~
i pakai rantai bintang since i 1st sem lg..
i loike it so much..
i wore it evrywhere
but then hilang..
so i bought a new one.
black colour punye~
bintang hitam tu lg jahat sket la..
kunun² laaa..
bintang hitam tu ibarat hati i yg hitam , empty...

and then i jumpe u...
n i ade cinnn~ dgn u..
i pna niat since i wore the green star lg. ( lame tuu~ 2yrs lebih jugak la i wore rantai bintang tu )
if i ade gf..i'll give d star to her..
ibaratnye i bagi u hati hitam i n i takkan kembali kpd kehitaman tu..
n u r d girl yg i trust n gv d star to u..
n i igt i bg tym bufday u dulunnn~
kerna of u i berubah mcm²..

u tau knape i bg bintang hitam tu?

u coloured my heart la syg..
mcm pelangi owh~
n u mepenuhi hati i yg dikosongi nihh...aduhnye~
no more black² colour in me lagi..
♥ ♥ ♥

n then u..
after d broke up..
i wish sgt i wanna be like ' The Other Man '..
gile² punye..
kunun nak huha sane..huha sini..
tu yg i nak sgt bintang hitam i tu..
i x reti n i x mampu da..

tym i amek rantai tu..
i igt i nak buang rantai tu depan u..
but when i see ur face..
i hold it..
tatau knape..

tym i blk dgn kwn i tu..
ktorg stop dkat tepi jln..
sembang² pasal rantai tu.
dye suruh buang cuz dye ckp that's not me anymore..
i 50 - 50 nak buang ke tak..
i duduk..
i men pusing2 kt jari rantai tu..
but then..
tetibe buah bintang tu tecabut hilang entah ke mana....
telah ditakdirkan..
i buang rantai yg i syg tu.

hee xp
i da temeroyan da nih..


malam bulan terang , menyaksi bintang²
ku seru engkaulah pelangi cintamu

Saturday, July 09, 2011


dikatakan bahawa..

" Cinta yang agung adalah ketika kamu menitiskan
airmata dan masih pedulikan terhadapnya
ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu dan
kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia..

Apabila cinta tidak berhasil
ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain dan
kamu masih bisa tersenyum sambil berkata
' aku turut berbahagia untukmu ' ..
BEBASkan lah dirimu..
biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan
sayapnya dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi ( being single )

Ingatlah bahwa kamu mungkin menemukan
cinta dan kehilangannya..
ketika cinta itu mati , kamu tidak perlu mati bersamanya.
orang yang kuat adalah bukan
orang yang selalu menang melainkan
mereka yang masih bisa berdiri ketika mereka jatuh. "

dulu bila bangun tido..
macam x percaya je u're my girl..
but now,
bile bangun tdo..
macam x percaya yg u're not my girl anymore..
salah i..

p/s :

ingin rasanya i hug u for d last tym b4 u go
tapi i scare i'll cry
rasa takut kehilangan u
kini menjelma menjadi nyata

♥ tym for me to wake up ♥

Monday, May 23, 2011

The other man

long tym ago..
i'd set my mind to be a man that's not like the other man..

The Other Man

" we(man) share , we care , we love , we fuck , we cheat then we leave"

that's how the other man end up their relationship until they're getting tired..

if i can turn back tym..
i would like to set my mind back to be like the other man..

" sharing is caring , caring is loving , loving is fucking , fucking then we cheating n cheating then we're leaving bby "

but i denied it eventho its sound so much fun..

i dun wanna be like that..
i rather lay low my ego & dignity as a man than be like the other man..


we dunno wut people think..
they can change their mind in a second..

n maybe after this i'll change n think like the other man or worst..


syg , once upon a time, we said forever,

p/s :

bleeding ♥

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

jiwa ini.

so beautiful

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

My lovely blog

dear my lovely blog - KURAKUSRAKUS -
i mish u so damn fucking much..
sory for d silence n not longer stick wit u..
i hope u tak kesah cuz u knew d reasons rite..?
YES, it's true..
im HAPPY wit my life cuz i have my special one to be with me all the tym when i need sumone eventho im busy wit my work :)

u kno wut.
i wont forget u..
no need to wury bout that..

OhEmGee~ bak kata puya..
how can i forget u..?
u r the one who always be by my side long tym ago when im lonely n feel like a loser..
u taught me how to face this world n gamble with it!
u showed me the strength n trust to fight back my agony..
n the best thing is..
u je sorg yg layan feeling i..
I mish u!

p/s :

lamo doh x kece mat saleh nim!