Parah parah~

U know..

A boy like me wont take things seriously..
Sumtimes i act like a fool coz im ufudangfang rite..

im not that strong

Im smiling ,

beneath my heart im in agony

im laughing ,

beneath my heart im crying

If I should die this very moment

I wouldn't fear
If you hold my hands

Could we stay right there
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry

All this time I've loved you n missed you
you are true peace
makes my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul

" ble kte tau org tu yg kte cari slame nih
mmg susah nk lepaskan dye
walau pom org tu ckp tidak
kte still go on n on n give my all

-

hey kamu ,
hanya kamu dan masa penghalangnya
bila tiba waktunya , i akan bersedia
menghadapi perubahan itu.

i harap tiada benci diantara kita
pemikiran dapat mengubahnya , hanya kamu.. "

p/s :

hati i terluka , hati i tersiksa

dah parah dah i nih

My Black Star

Well ...

:') i juz can smile..its too late for me..

my fault, - i shud befren wit his parents 1st..

n im not gud enough to be a man..

refer to my older entry titled " The Other Man"

i dun know how a man can be like other man..

it's so cruel..

hee..

story about me..

i mostly known as a man with star.

obsess wit stars..

baju bintang , belt bintang , rantai bintang n hati pon ala² bintang..

hehehhe

dulu time i wild sket..sket je x byk pon..

urm.moderate je kot i punye wild tu..

i ade rantai bintang..green colour woh~

i pakai rantai bintang since i 1st sem lg..

i loike it so much..

i wore it evrywhere

but then hilang..

so i bought a new one.

black colour punye~

bintang hitam tu lg jahat sket la..

kunun² laaa..

bintang hitam tu ibarat hati i yg hitam , empty...

wawawawa..

and then i jumpe u...

n i ade cinnn~ dgn u..

i pna niat since i wore the green star lg. ( lame tuu~ 2yrs lebih jugak la i wore rantai bintang tu )

if i ade gf..i'll give d star to her..

ibaratnye i bagi u hati hitam i n i takkan kembali kpd kehitaman tu..

n u r d girl yg i trust n gv d star to u..

n i igt i bg tym bufday u dulunnn~

kerna of u i berubah mcm²..

thx~

u tau knape i bg bintang hitam tu?

kernaa..

u coloured my heart la syg..

mcm pelangi owh~

n u mepenuhi hati i yg dikosongi nihh...aduhnye~

no more black² colour in me lagi..

♥ ♥ ♥

n then u..

after d broke up..

i wish sgt i wanna be like ' The Other Man '..

gile² punye..

kunun nak huha sane..huha sini..

tu yg i nak sgt bintang hitam i tu..

tapi..

i x reti n i x mampu da..

tym i amek rantai tu..

i igt i nak buang rantai tu depan u..

but when i see ur face..

i hold it..

tatau knape..

tym i blk dgn kwn i tu..

ktorg stop dkat tepi jln..

sembang² pasal rantai tu.

dye suruh buang cuz dye ckp that's not me anymore..

i 50 - 50 nak buang ke tak..

i duduk..

i men pusing2 kt jari rantai tu..

but then..

tetibe buah bintang tu tecabut hilang entah ke mana....

telah ditakdirkan..

i buang rantai yg i syg tu.

hee xp

i da temeroyan da nih..

p/s:

malam bulan terang , menyaksi bintang²

ku seru engkaulah pelangi cintamu ♥

Rehab

dikatakan bahawa..

" Cinta yang agung adalah ketika kamu menitiskan

airmata dan masih pedulikan terhadapnya

ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu dan

kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia..

Apabila cinta tidak berhasil

ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain dan

kamu masih bisa tersenyum sambil berkata

' aku turut berbahagia untukmu ' ..

BEBASkan lah dirimu..

biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan

sayapnya dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi ( being single )

Ingatlah bahwa kamu mungkin menemukan

cinta dan kehilangannya..

ketika cinta itu mati , kamu tidak perlu mati bersamanya.

kerna..

orang yang kuat adalah bukan

orang yang selalu menang melainkan

mereka yang masih bisa berdiri ketika mereka jatuh. "

dulu bila bangun tido..

macam x percaya je u're my girl..

but now,

bile bangun tdo..

macam x percaya yg u're not my girl anymore..

salah i..

p/s :

ingin rasanya i hug u for d last tym b4 u go

tapi i scare i'll cry

rasa takut kehilangan u

kini menjelma menjadi nyata

♥ tym for me to wake up ♥

The other man

long tym ago..
i'd set my mind to be a man that's not like the other man..

The Other Man

" we(man) share , we care , we love , we fuck , we cheat then we leave"

that's how the other man end up their relationship until they're getting tired..

if i can turn back tym..
i would like to set my mind back to be like the other man..

" sharing is caring , caring is loving , loving is fucking , fucking then we cheating n cheating then we're leaving bby "

but i denied it eventho its sound so much fun..

i dun wanna be like that..
i rather lay low my ego & dignity as a man than be like the other man..

but..

we dunno wut people think..
they can change their mind in a second..

n maybe after this i'll change n think like the other man or worst..

hurm..

syg , once upon a time, we said forever,

p/s :

bleeding ♥

jiwa ini.

so beautiful


“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

My lovely blog

dear my lovely blog - KURAKUSRAKUS -
i mish u so damn fucking much..
sory for d silence n not longer stick wit u..
i hope u tak kesah cuz u knew d reasons rite..?
YES, it's true..
im HAPPY wit my life cuz i have my special one to be with me all the tym when i need sumone eventho im busy wit my work :)

u kno wut.
i wont forget u..
no need to wury bout that..
hee..

OhEmGee~ bak kata puya..
how can i forget u..?
u r the one who always be by my side long tym ago when im lonely n feel like a loser..
u taught me how to face this world n gamble with it!
u showed me the strength n trust to fight back my agony..
n the best thing is..
u je sorg yg layan feeling i..
hee..syok~
I mish u!
hehu~

p/s :

lamo doh x kece mat saleh nim!

Tag me lagi.

Rules: Once you've been tagged

you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.

At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.

You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Tagged means "I'm interested in knowing what are your 100 truths".

(To do this, copy and paste this note,
erase my answers and enter your own)

1. Real name: Mohammad Azhar bin Mohamed Razid

2. Nickname(s): ja'a , Azhar , Azhar Rakus , Addy Cheng , kikon , Tiger , kumbang tiger & abg damak.

3. Zodiac Sign:Gemini

4. Male or Female: Male

5. Elementary School: Tadika Kemas

6. High School: SMK Bandar Baru Sg Buloh

7. College: UiTM

8. Hair color: black

9. Tall or short : short.

10. TV or XBOX : XBOX

11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans

12. Phone or Camera: Phone

13. Health Freak: Nop

14. Orange or Apple: Apple

15. Do you have a crush on someone: yurp

16. Eat or Drink: eat & drink a lot..

17. Piercings: nahhh..

18. Pepsi or Coke: pepsi

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an airplane: yurp

20. Been in a relationship: yes, i did

21. Been in a car accident: big big yess

22. Been in prison: ya..Love prison..ahahhaha..

FIRSTS?

23. First piercing: i dont have any.

24. First best friend: Mohd Al- hakim.

25. First award: tym darjah 1.

26. First crush: when I was in 1st sem.

27. First word: thok..!!

28. First kiss : barcelona in memory babeyh..

LAST?

29. Last person you talked to in person: Afath n alan.

30. Last person you texted: Maira Love.

31. Last person you watched a movie with: Maira - aku masih dara - zzz..

32. Last food you ate : keropok moni..hehe..tade la..keropok ikan..

33. Last movie you watched : aku masih dara.

34. Last song you listened to: boneca - cela.

35. Last thing you bought: petrol ron95.

36. Last person you hugged: Maira Love.

FAVORITES?

37. Food: anything will do

38. Drink: a lot. ahha.

39. Skirts or dress : dress.

40. Flower: Roses

41. Animal: cats

42. Colours: black n rainbow.

43. Movies: anything.

44. Subjects: arts.

HAVE YOU EVER:

(Put an X in the brackets if yes )

45. [ X ] fell in love with someone

46. [ ] celebrated Halloween

47. [ X ] had your heart broken.

48. [ X ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.

49. [ x ] had someone question my sexual orientation.

50. [ x ] copy friends' answers in exam.

51. [ ] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an abortion.

53. [ X ] did something I regret.

54. [ X ] broke a promise.

55. [ X ] hide a secret.

56. [ X ] pretended to be happy.

57. [ X ] met someone who changed your life.

58. [ X ] pretended to be sick

59. [ ] left the country.

60. [ X ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it. (not in a wrong way.)

61. [ X ] cried over the silliest thing.

62. [ ] ran a mile.

63. [ X ] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [ X ] kick someone's leg

65. [ X ] hated someone.

66. [ X ] stayed single for 2 years

RIGHT NOW

67. Eating: no

68. Drinking: no

69. Listening: yes

70. Sitting/Laying: sitting

71. Plans for today: having my handsome sleep

72. Waiting: next year.

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids? yeah.

74. Want to get married? mesti lah..

75. Career: professional production team.

76. Lips or Eyes: lips.

77. Shorter or Taller: taller

78. Romantic or Spontaneous : spontaneous, maybe

79. Cook for wife / husband: big YESS

80. House: whatever

81. In relationship with: Maira Ahmad

82. Looks or personality: personality

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: yes

84. Stay up for 24 hours: yes

85. Watching cartoon: yes

86. Killed somebody: nope

87. Broken someone's heart: yes

88. Been in love: yes mangkuk.

89. Cried when someone died: no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: infinity

91. Miracles: well, i do

92. Love at first sight: yes

93. Heaven: yes

94. Santa Claus: no

95. First date : urmm...

96. Kiss on the first date: .. barcelona again babeyh..hehe..

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: For God's sake, yess.

98. Do you know who your real friends are: yes.

99. Do you believe in ALLAH: God Almighty

100. Post as 100 truths? ok done

TAG TO THEM:

sesiape yg bace ok..
sesiape je..

p/s :

about the question 98..
it's about real frens , not a bff :)