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Enjoy this video..
btw..
bukan sy yg ajar eh cucu pak ngah nih.
dye mmg hebat bergojet..
dan mempersembahkan tarian dye kt bajet anak raja baju kunin tu..

rasa pedih tak terungkap

Lena Mawarku - Zip Zieller

Jiwa gundah gulana
takkan mati sengsara
ingin capai kau bunga di syurga
hati kosong berlabuh
dari awalan dulu
jalan gelap kau ku rasa

mungkin cara pengampun
dalam hati yang lumpuh
bebaskan ku dari rakus dosamu
terang sinar mu terik
dalam pedoman diri
rasa pedih tak terungkap

lena mawarku dalam debu
lena mawarku kau ratu

ego lalu berlalu
kerna sifat ku layu
cuba singkap ia kembali darimu
langkah teguh ku longlai
hanya tunggu terlerai
rasa gelap dalam siang tersadai

pergi kau angin lalu
corak satu persatu
biarkan ia dapat kembali darimu
jiwa ronta tersedar
nak hidup dah sudah
hidup kembali cahaya di dada

lena mawarku dalam debu
lena mawarku kau ratu

Semalam tgh sembang - sembang dengan dye..
teringat dkat lagu nih..
byk makne yg mendalam dkt lagu nih..
lirik ni tade kt memane ...
da try cari , tp ta dpt..
so , ade kot silap sket pe yg sy tulis..
hurm...

" Bermatian dan bersushan menjaga
hati setia insan
hutang budinya dibawa mati. "

tuan puteri..
org ckp pape pom..
kwn² u tau sape u kn..
nite..
mimpi indah~

p/s :

hilangkan segala resah
semoga lena mawarku

Raya

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usha kt facebook..
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My Family

Front : Kie my 5th bro , mama , babah n Yol my last bro
Back : Eram my 1st bro , Alip my 3rd bro , me n Adan my 2nd bro.

4 Bahaya - Anak² Razid ( bOtak )

Jaa , Alip , Eram n Adan

Tahun ni ktorg 4 orang jadi kaum kerabat..
hehe..
sume pakai kunin..ahuhu..
my younger brohers plak spoil..
pakai baju wane lain..
sebok jep nk ikut gf memasing..
gelabah je..
both tu anak angkat.!!
ahahaha..
gurau je..
btw..
thx to eram sbb sponsor baju raya n kasut raye n also mlm 1st raye tuu...
wawawa..
Selamat Hari Raye sume
Maaf Ampun dipinta mane yg salah silap sy ea..

p/s :

Raye ni asek teringat dye jep
knal dye tym raye kot hee
rindunye~

If i should die

If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
If you hold my hands

Could we stay right there
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry

All this time I've loved you n missed you
you are true peace
makes my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul


The one I've waited for

hurm..
ego..
knape ego sgt..?
camne nk describe ego tu..?
camne nk tau ape yg kte buat tu base on ego..?

haih..
$sy ckp..
sy tanak.. ( tp hati mau )
dye bitau sy..
itu ego..
haih..
dye tanye..

" ape soalan yg kau nk tanye if jumpe dye ? "

jika sy jumpe dye..
sy ingin tanye..

1. awak sehat..?
2. how's ur life..?
3. i mish u a lot..do u..? ( ta kan kot..prasan lebih je )
   
4. mkn suda..?
5. camne study..?
6. ur love story..?

hurm..
byk nye nk tanye..
sy tahan..
tatau knape..
sy bley tahan..
sy telah ajar diri sy untuk menempuh saat seperti itu..
ego ke..?
itu yg sy tatau tu..


18/08 - 1.30 a.m aritu tade keje pegi men drift..
eventho menumpang je.. ( sbb if aku bwk kete tu terbang nnt )
sgt syok..
drift sane..
drift sini..
then..
terbabas..
agak cemas juge..
pokok itu sblah sy saje..
ahahahha..
gyle..
bley mati oouhhh..
seb baek tak cedera pape..
juz jln cam robot sket ah...
ahuhuhu..


hari itu.
sy tgh marah marah kerna ....
at d same tym.
ade org tgh tggu sy..
sy marah marah..
sy g jumpe dye..
sy suruh dye tggu kjap kerna sy nk pegi marah marah..
lpas tu..
sy jumpe org tu blk..
sy masih dlm mood marah marah lg..
dye suruh sy calm down..
thx..
sy dpt control marah sy n trus blah g mkn ..
lepas few days camtu kot..
tgh on call nih.
dye ckp..
dye takut tgk sy marah marah..
dye tamau tgk sy marah marah..
sbb sy bukan seorg yg snang nk marah..
mase tu..
sy rase mcm..
bile sy marah..
sy akan jadi monster yg menakutkan rakyat sekalian..

sy sungguh rasa bersalah sgt..
tp tu lah..
bagi sy tak salah untuk marah marah if bukan salah kte..
org tak sentuh sy..
sy tak sentuh org..
hurm..
well..
sy takut nk tanye lah..
u single..?
ahuhuhuhu...

change

i ade satu cite dowh..

Ade 2 tears ni mengalir in 1 river..1 tear of gadis n 1 tear of a guy.Nak buat cite , tym tu airmata gadis mengalir kt sblah airmata laki tuh.Then diorg berkenalan lah sesama airmata.Tear of laki tuh tanye lah tear of gadis tu lepas dorg berkenalan..

Laki : Hey..i wonder la..knape u mengalir..mengape menangis..?
Girl : urm..i baru reject sorg guy nih..
Laki : Then..?knape u yg nangis..
Girl : its hard for me la ngeng..Igt snang ke nk reject2 bestfren nih..feel so guilty ok..
Laki : ouh..i tau..ade ke slame ni dye ckp u as his bestfren..?
Girl : u bising ah..u plak ..?mengape menangis..?
Laki : i baru kne reject dgn 1 girl ni yg i rase can perfect my life..
Girl : no wonder u nangis..ni lah laki..takleyh face d fact..u kwn jep la ngan dye..
Laki : u ckp snang ah..bende da takkan same da..sbb i mmg niat nk cinta dye..
Girl : niat u je u pk..niat dye plak u tanak pk..nk jd u nye bestfren..
Laki : ckp la ape pom..i tak tipu diri i..
Girl : i pom tak tipu diri i..i juz cant accept him..dunno y..

end of story.

mlm smlm..
ade org call sy..
dye ckp dye terbace blog sy.
haha..
lawak jep dye..
blog ni mmg untuk dibace lah..
if tak xkan i nk kasi org tgk kot..
hurm..
dye ade cite prob dye kt sy..
so mcm biase..
i kne lah dgr..( aku tade gf lagi jgn korg pggl aku Doc tuuuutt... )
hahaha..


i sembang2 lah dgn dye dlm fon lbih kurg sejam stengah lebih la..
byk kedit dye -.-"
huhu..

syok sembang dgn dye..
story dye same like mine..
cume this tym lain sket..
the other side..
pihak gadis..
dye ckp ... .. . ... ... ... .. .. .. .. .. ... ... .. ... .. mn bla bla bla..

ouh..
i tau..
mmg susah en nk reject seseorg tu..
rase tersepit je..
bitau salah.
tak bitau pom salah..
now i kno her feelin.
so so so sory..
nk buat cane..
kne face the fact..
sbb org tu tak leyh nk face the fact mcm i dulu.
ahaha..
dah in love sgt en..

ble kte tau org tu yg kte cari slame nih
mmg susah nk lepaskan dye
walau pom org tu ckp tidak
kte still go on n try bg segalanya
hoping dye accept the love

hee.
u tayah risau lah.
cume mase je yg jd penghalangnya..
atleast u tak lari dari masalah u..
u brani jumpe dye n face d fact that he love u..
n u plak u juz anggap dye kwn baik..
i da phm both situation da..
this is not love false.
haha...
stop crying ok.
things gonna be ok.
i pray for u..
haih..
u mesti pna dgr org ckp camni en..

' Chillex ah dear.U kan muda lagi.Enjoy ur life.Tayah pikir mende2 tu sume '

Itu lah kata2 yg sering i dengar bile mereka tau i post blog yg patah2 hati n sedih2 nih..
haha..
bile muda je mesti enjoy..
bile enjoy je muda..
tua2 takley enjoy..?
muahahahha..
hurm entahlah..
masa muda mmg fun en..
tp acamne esok luse dah tade..?
hah.?!
tgh2 enjoy tetibe kajong plak en..
hah.?!
itu yg sy tatau tu..

hee..
btw..
thx la honey2 kuh..
ahuhu..
korg mmg fun..
&& fygi..
ex-schoolmate sy tuh hanyalah teman suka duka saja..
dye dah ade boyfie okeh..

"it is da'sweetest tyme when we became frens...but it change when it comes to b a special one..."

p/s :
Laugh love n cry wit all ur heart.
Life doesnt last forever.

Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku..?

I juz read my oldest entry that i'd post on 13 Nov 08..
its titled ' Dear Gadis '..
n in that entry stated words that telling her why do i love her..
n then i read all my entries that i'd post bout her n how much i need her..

Wut d hack im telling u guys bout this..

it's bcoz there r 1 fren who is my ex-schoolmate b4 n we're getting closer..
we shared our probs together n try to chill each other..
she'd mention 1 statement that makes me feels so so sakit hati n guilty..

' Boleh ke i caye kat u..?i takot u ja'a yg dulu je '

Yes..
I pon takot if i jaa yg dulu..
im not blaming her if she said like that..
coz i can face the fact n tried to change..

I always walked back through my memories to see wut i'd miss n lost..
I tried to be a better person and it's still not good enough..
not good enough to impress her n everyone that were on my way..
i hurted my self n keep trying till i got wut i want..

then i realize that evrything in this world has its limit..
hurm..



I juz walked back through my memories..
n i hope i'll not do the same mistakes..

p/s :

Not good enough is better than
trying to be so perfect