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Perpisahan Ini - 1st Edition feat Aizat Amdan

2011-07-16T14:09:00.000-07:00

learning to be strong

2011-07-13T12:02:00.000-07:00

I Learn To Be Strong

by Felicia

Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with her soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

p/s :

Please , dont do d same mistake,

I da try delete all bout u,

but baby,

my mind,

my heart,

juz u,

only u.

Parah parah~

2011-07-12T12:45:00.000-07:00

U know..

A boy like me wont take things seriously..
Sumtimes i act like a fool coz im ufudangfang rite..

im not that strong

Im smiling ,

beneath my heart im in agony

im laughing ,

beneath my heart im crying

If I should die this very moment

I wouldn't fear
If you hold my hands

Could we stay right there
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry

All this time I've loved you n missed you
you are true peace
makes my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul

" ble kte tau org tu yg kte cari slame nih
mmg susah nk lepaskan dye
walau pom org tu ckp tidak
kte still go on n on n give my all

hey kamu ,
hanya kamu dan masa penghalangnya
bila tiba waktunya , i akan bersedia
menghadapi perubahan itu.

i harap tiada benci diantara kita
pemikiran dapat mengubahnya , hanya kamu.. "

p/s :

hati i terluka , hati i tersiksa

dah parah dah i nih

My Black Star

2011-07-11T11:55:00.000-07:00

Well ...

:') i juz can smile..its too late for me..

my fault, - i shud befren wit his parents 1st..

n im not gud enough to be a man..

refer to my older entry titled " The Other Man"

i dun know how a man can be like other man..

it's so cruel..

hee..

story about me..

i mostly known as a man with star.

obsess wit stars..

baju bintang , belt bintang , rantai bintang n hati pon ala² bintang..

hehehhe

dulu time i wild sket..sket je x byk pon..

urm.moderate je kot i punye wild tu..

i ade rantai bintang..green colour woh~

i pakai rantai bintang since i 1st sem lg..

i loike it so much..

i wore it evrywhere

but then hilang..

so i bought a new one.

black colour punye~

bintang hitam tu lg jahat sket la..

kunun² laaa..

bintang hitam tu ibarat hati i yg hitam , empty...

wawawawa..

and then i jumpe u...

n i ade cinnn~ dgn u..

i pna niat since i wore the green star lg. ( lame tuu~ 2yrs lebih jugak la i wore rantai bintang tu )

if i ade gf..i'll give d star to her..

ibaratnye i bagi u hati hitam i n i takkan kembali kpd kehitaman tu..

n u r d girl yg i trust n gv d star to u..

n i igt i bg tym bufday u dulunnn~

kerna of u i berubah mcm²..

thx~

u tau knape i bg bintang hitam tu?

kernaa..

u coloured my heart la syg..

mcm pelangi owh~

n u mepenuhi hati i yg dikosongi nihh...aduhnye~

no more black² colour in me lagi..

♥ ♥ ♥

n then u..

after d broke up..

i wish sgt i wanna be like ' The Other Man '..

gile² punye..

kunun nak huha sane..huha sini..

tu yg i nak sgt bintang hitam i tu..

tapi..

i x reti n i x mampu da..

tym i amek rantai tu..

i igt i nak buang rantai tu depan u..

but when i see ur face..

i hold it..

tatau knape..

tym i blk dgn kwn i tu..

ktorg stop dkat tepi jln..

sembang² pasal rantai tu.

dye suruh buang cuz dye ckp that's not me anymore..

i 50 - 50 nak buang ke tak..

i duduk..

i men pusing2 kt jari rantai tu..

but then..

tetibe buah bintang tu tecabut hilang entah ke mana....

telah ditakdirkan..

i buang rantai yg i syg tu.

hee xp

i da temeroyan da nih..

p/s:

malam bulan terang , menyaksi bintang²

ku seru engkaulah pelangi cintamu ♥

Rehab

2011-07-09T12:56:00.000-07:00

dikatakan bahawa..

" Cinta yang agung adalah ketika kamu menitiskan

airmata dan masih pedulikan terhadapnya

ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu dan

kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia..

Apabila cinta tidak berhasil

ketika dia mulai mencintai orang lain dan

kamu masih bisa tersenyum sambil berkata

' aku turut berbahagia untukmu ' ..

BEBASkan lah dirimu..

biarkan hatimu kembali melebarkan

sayapnya dan terbang ke alam bebas lagi ( being single )

Ingatlah bahwa kamu mungkin menemukan

cinta dan kehilangannya..

ketika cinta itu mati , kamu tidak perlu mati bersamanya.

kerna..

orang yang kuat adalah bukan

orang yang selalu menang melainkan

mereka yang masih bisa berdiri ketika mereka jatuh. "

dulu bila bangun tido..

macam x percaya je u're my girl..

but now,

bile bangun tdo..

macam x percaya yg u're not my girl anymore..

salah i..

p/s :

ingin rasanya i hug u for d last tym b4 u go

tapi i scare i'll cry

rasa takut kehilangan u

kini menjelma menjadi nyata

♥ tym for me to wake up ♥

The other man

2011-05-23T14:17:00.000-07:00

long tym ago..
i'd set my mind to be a man that's not like the other man..

The Other Man

" we(man) share , we care , we love , we fuck , we cheat then we leave"

that's how the other man end up their relationship until they're getting tired..

if i can turn back tym..
i would like to set my mind back to be like the other man..

" sharing is caring , caring is loving , loving is fucking , fucking then we cheating n cheating then we're leaving bby "

but i denied it eventho its sound so much fun..

i dun wanna be like that..
i rather lay low my ego & dignity as a man than be like the other man..

but..

we dunno wut people think..
they can change their mind in a second..

n maybe after this i'll change n think like the other man or worst..

hurm..

syg , once upon a time, we said forever,

p/s :

bleeding ♥

jiwa ini.

2011-05-03T11:19:00.000-07:00

so beautiful

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

hanya kamu

2011-04-28T13:02:00.000-07:00

Only You

Aku selalu nyatakan padamu

aku cinta padamu

tak pernah ku terniat tuk melupakan dirimu

sayangku kepadamu

bak luas langit nan biru

izinkan diriku tuk menebus kesilapan yang lalu

when i close my eyes

u always in my mind

i wish my dream come true

to be with u

Oh kasih , maafkanlah aku

kau umpama bintang di angkasa

yang bersinar hanya untukku

hanya kamu , hanya satu

didalam hatiku ini

tiada yang lain

Perpisahan

2011-04-25T12:12:00.001-07:00

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini

Bukan kerana kau membenci

Tapi kasih yang pernah kuberi

Tiada lagi bersama

Seringkala aku terlihatkan mu

Impian nan indah

Bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari

Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali

Tapi hati masih tak terima

Ditinggalkan sengsara

(Korus)

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu

Perasaan hati masih rindu

Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku

Tercari-cari bayanganmu

Tak sanggup aku kehilangan

Kehilanganmu

Kasih tercari-cari

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu

Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu

Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

Sedih

2011-04-24T06:05:00.001-07:00

sy sedih.

sy juz need u..

yg kenali sy..

yg tlah pergi jauh.

sbb sy really² sedih..

sy tatau..

entahlah..

yg pasti sy sedih..

p/s : sy sedih :')

My lovely blog

2011-03-08T11:29:00.000-08:00

dear my lovely blog - KURAKUSRAKUS -
i mish u so damn fucking much..
sory for d silence n not longer stick wit u..
i hope u tak kesah cuz u knew d reasons rite..?
YES, it's true..
im HAPPY wit my life cuz i have my special one to be with me all the tym when i need sumone eventho im busy wit my work :)

u kno wut.
i wont forget u..
no need to wury bout that..
hee..

OhEmGee~ bak kata puya..
how can i forget u..?
u r the one who always be by my side long tym ago when im lonely n feel like a loser..
u taught me how to face this world n gamble with it!
u showed me the strength n trust to fight back my agony..
n the best thing is..
u je sorg yg layan feeling i..
hee..syok~
I mish u!
hehu~

p/s :

lamo doh x kece mat saleh nim!

Tag me lagi.

2010-12-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged

you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.

At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.

You have to tag the person who tagged you.

Tagged means "I'm interested in knowing what are your 100 truths".

(To do this, copy and paste this note,
erase my answers and enter your own)

1. Real name: Mohammad Azhar bin Mohamed Razid

2. Nickname(s): ja'a , Azhar , Azhar Rakus , Addy Cheng , kikon , Tiger , kumbang tiger & abg damak.

3. Zodiac Sign:Gemini

4. Male or Female: Male

5. Elementary School: Tadika Kemas

6. High School: SMK Bandar Baru Sg Buloh

7. College: UiTM

8. Hair color: black

9. Tall or short : short.

10. TV or XBOX : XBOX

11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans

12. Phone or Camera: Phone

13. Health Freak: Nop

14. Orange or Apple: Apple

15. Do you have a crush on someone: yurp

16. Eat or Drink: eat & drink a lot..

17. Piercings: nahhh..

18. Pepsi or Coke: pepsi

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an airplane: yurp

20. Been in a relationship: yes, i did

21. Been in a car accident: big big yess

22. Been in prison: ya..Love prison..ahahhaha..

FIRSTS?

23. First piercing: i dont have any.

24. First best friend: Mohd Al- hakim.

25. First award: tym darjah 1.

26. First crush: when I was in 1st sem.

27. First word: thok..!!

28. First kiss : barcelona in memory babeyh..

LAST?

29. Last person you talked to in person: Afath n alan.

30. Last person you texted: Maira Love.

31. Last person you watched a movie with: Maira - aku masih dara - zzz..

32. Last food you ate : keropok moni..hehe..tade la..keropok ikan..

33. Last movie you watched : aku masih dara.

34. Last song you listened to: boneca - cela.

35. Last thing you bought: petrol ron95.

36. Last person you hugged: Maira Love.

FAVORITES?

37. Food: anything will do

38. Drink: a lot. ahha.

39. Skirts or dress : dress.

40. Flower: Roses

41. Animal: cats

42. Colours: black n rainbow.

43. Movies: anything.

44. Subjects: arts.

HAVE YOU EVER:

(Put an X in the brackets if yes )

45. [ X ] fell in love with someone

46. [ ] celebrated Halloween

47. [ X ] had your heart broken.

48. [ X ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.

49. [ x ] had someone question my sexual orientation.

50. [ x ] copy friends' answers in exam.

51. [ ] got pregnant.

52. [ ] had an abortion.

53. [ X ] did something I regret.

54. [ X ] broke a promise.

55. [ X ] hide a secret.

56. [ X ] pretended to be happy.

57. [ X ] met someone who changed your life.

58. [ X ] pretended to be sick

59. [ ] left the country.

60. [ X ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it. (not in a wrong way.)

61. [ X ] cried over the silliest thing.

62. [ ] ran a mile.

63. [ X ] went to the beach with your best friend.

64. [ X ] kick someone's leg

65. [ X ] hated someone.

66. [ X ] stayed single for 2 years

RIGHT NOW

67. Eating: no

68. Drinking: no

69. Listening: yes

70. Sitting/Laying: sitting

71. Plans for today: having my handsome sleep

72. Waiting: next year.

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids? yeah.

74. Want to get married? mesti lah..

75. Career: professional production team.

76. Lips or Eyes: lips.

77. Shorter or Taller: taller

78. Romantic or Spontaneous : spontaneous, maybe

79. Cook for wife / husband: big YESS

80. House: whatever

81. In relationship with: Maira Ahmad

82. Looks or personality: personality

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: yes

84. Stay up for 24 hours: yes

85. Watching cartoon: yes

86. Killed somebody: nope

87. Broken someone's heart: yes

88. Been in love: yes mangkuk.

89. Cried when someone died: no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: infinity

91. Miracles: well, i do

92. Love at first sight: yes

93. Heaven: yes

94. Santa Claus: no

95. First date : urmm...

96. Kiss on the first date: .. barcelona again babeyh..hehe..

TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: For God's sake, yess.

98. Do you know who your real friends are: yes.

99. Do you believe in ALLAH: God Almighty

100. Post as 100 truths? ok done

TAG TO THEM:

sesiape yg bace ok..
sesiape je..

p/s :

about the question 98..
it's about real frens , not a bff :)

boneca cela (lirik)

2010-12-23T01:20:00.000-08:00

ok guys chill k.
bila sampai waktunye..
tunjukkan la anda siape ok.
♥

For the rest of my life.

2010-12-21T09:34:00.000-08:00

happy Birthday to u fren.
shweet 20..
may god bless u with wealth n health.
amiinnn...

Chemical antara kitaaa~

2010-12-14T10:38:00.000-08:00

lame da x update blog nih..
rase malas..
boleh x..?
heee..
baru² ni org tu ade bg sy lagu nih..
sgt shweett gyle babe..

kau kucup pipiku
kau bisikkan cintamu
kau kata baby ilove u
kau cairkan hatiku

aww~~
hehe...lame gak x gedik²..

p/s:

ouh ye..
if x bley dgr lagu tuh..
pegi je kt youtube dgr..
kan senang..
kekdg link dye nih cam vavi sket,,

bahagia kurasa ♥~

Takut TV

2010-12-01T16:25:00.000-08:00

yeah~
sy dah grad i tell u haaa...
u kno thx to all haaa i tell u ..
btw haa..
dont forget to watch TAKUT TV at ASTRO WARNA 9.30 p.m every wednesday i tell u haa..
i tell u eventho im a part of d team tym making d TAKUT TV tu haa..
doesnt mean i cant acting haa i tell u haa..
hehe..
tgk jgn x tgk haa i tell u...

p/s ;

mcm gampang slang tu..
i noe..i tell u haa..
ahuhuhuhu~~

Talking to the moon

2010-10-13T10:36:00.000-07:00

guys..
this song reminds me to my past..
i mish this moment where im alone , down n hopeless.
ouhh~
i really mish this moment..
layan feeling sorang²..
rinduu~~
thx to my frens cuz always be with me..
♥ u guys :))

One Day , the BODY sembang wit the HEART..
" When im hurts , the doctor will heals me , but when u hurt, who'se gonna heals u? "
Then the HEART says ,
" I have to heal by myself~ "
Then the BODY says ,
" FUCK YOU! " <-- (Joke)

p/s :

i mish talking to u moon
n to u too stars~ :)

2010-10-03T19:35:00.000-07:00

siot ah kne hack.

Malapetaka

2010-09-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

Hey ya..!

to u guys sume..

phone saya telah hilang n sume contact numbers gone.

so.

sesape yg menganali sy..

sila send kan num fon anda di fesbuk sy eyh..

trima kaseh..!!

p/s :

Selamat Hari Raya

Maaf Zahir n Batin

Love

2010-09-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

i wanna dedicate this song to all my best frens foreva n especially to my only girl

- humaira ahmad ♥ -

p/s :

Selamat Hari Merdeka Mala

Pemahaman itu penting.

2010-08-05T23:50:00.000-07:00

Hye..
Lame ta jumpe.
entri kali ini mengenai short film Tak Melayu Hilang Di Dunia yg telah kami shoot dan diarah oleh kawan sy, Kamil Hashim.
Short Film itu telah di cmmnt oleh Hassan Mutalib, ia itu seorang lecturer di F.A.C.T dan bagi sy..
akhirnye ade jugak org yg memahami cerita yg ingin disampaikan oleh kami terhadap audience.

view this link -

http://skrinfilem.blogspot.com/2010/07/filem-pemikiran-lima-filem-pendek-dari.html

p/s :

new batch , new life & new glory

Hide n Seek - FUCK UP.

2010-07-25T16:44:00.000-07:00

i Cant find my bestfriend..
where is she..
i mish her so damn much..
byk bende i nak citee nih..
i'll find n remember u till the earth runs dry.

p/s :

am i running away

or juz u hiding from me...?????

Memory : The Brotherhood

2010-06-26T15:05:00.000-07:00

tadi lepak ngan pedot n terjumpe 1 video nih..
macam gampang..
if u guys wanna know..
ni la xtvt kitorg tym tgh tade keje kt bilik editing nun..
hehuuu..
enjoy~

well, to all my frens yg further study tu..Gudluck to uolss~
rindu korang sume² weyh..
study leklok..nnt kte akan bekerjasama keyh..
mish all d memories wit u guyss..
mumuahhhh ♥
xoxo~

Ouh..kepada rakan² yg juin xtvt nih..
go get ur video dkat pedott..

p/s :

bontot sy barai dowh~

Sometimes.

2010-06-23T13:53:00.000-07:00

sometimes, the best way to hold onto sumthing is to let it go.
LET IT GO...!

tadi tym tgh men on9² fesbuk..
then tetibe terjumpe ayat nih...
cube try bace..
hehuhuuu...

Jika kamu memancing ikan.... Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu.... Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja.... Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.Begitulah juga ........
Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...Setelah dia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....

JANGAN TERLALU MENCARI KESEMPURNAAN

katenyee..
tapi..
tu lahh..
pemancing bukan sorang..
if ade pemancing lain..
memancing skali and dapat ikan yg same.
so..
bergadohlah korg kt ctu..
if both pemancing lepaskan ikan tu.
kesian dye..
lagi rabaklah ikan itu..

lepas tu..
byk plak karenah pemancing..
if da dpt ikan..
balik terus goreng.
SODAPP..!
takpon trus panggang kt ctu jamah ramai²..
hahaha..

then yg si ikan plak.
ble da dilepaskan..
termakan lagi 1 mata kail..
if pemancing tu nk bela nk heal plak tape lah..
if lucky laa..
tapi..
if pemancing tu ta ske ikan yg rabak..
confirm dye buang balik..
ahaha.
takpom trus makan kt ctu gak mentah2..
tu klu pemancing jepun laa kann..

u decide who u wannabe.
ikan or pemancing..
n u must decide wut type of ikan u are n wut type of pemancing u are..
n actually u r both.
think bout it.

if saya la seorang pemancing..
sy tanak pakai mate kail..
sy nak pakai sauk je.
nnt sakit la ikan sy tu kne mata kail..
n if sy jadi ikan pule.
sy nak jadi ikan laga..
cantik pom cantik..
n orang tak makan ikan laga..
orang akan bela ikan tu cantik² lagi..
tp ikan laga tu rakus juga.
heheuheuheu..
suke berlaga²..

motiff..?
bosan la.
tatau nk post ape..
bley la bahan pasal ikan n pemancing tu.
best gakk..
macam gampang.

p/s ;

seb baek sy ni bukan seorang pemancing
sy ni lebih kepada memburu
memburu beruang lagi best
hohohohohoho~~~

Sudah ditempahh...

2010-06-19T13:46:00.000-07:00

byk nye nk story mory nih..

1 ) Tak Melayu Hilang Di Dunia
2 ) Pasal Practikal
3 ) Pasal Result
4 ) Tentang Keje
5 ) Tentang My Bufday yg da lepass..
6 ) Pasal ^ sem kt UiTM
7 ) pasal Sume² laahhh..

igt kan sy yeee..
nnt sy post sume² nyee..
ouh yaa..
Short Film sy tu dpt num 1..
Thx to kwn² sume kerna menjayakannya..
n cite tu da anta ke FFM daa.
Festival Film Malaysia.
syok²..

p/s :

Rindu sume²

2010-06-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

nnt sy update blog yeaa..

saat ini ku cerita

2010-05-11T12:41:00.000-07:00

kenangan yang lalu, ahh~ rindu xD

i mish u so damn fucking much much..
may b long tym no see n talk n cry wit..
ya..
i know..
people change..
n u had change...

" i takkan lupekan u n tinggalkan u kerna dye.i knal u dulu then baru dye. "

words that i always said to my bestfrens when i meet new frens..
orang mcm i memang tidak penting..
mcm kwn ckp..
i ni jenis yg tak reti menghargai..

p/s :

takkan kte nk fall in love wit org yg tak pasti tentang love dye en.

The Road Not Taken

2010-04-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost.

dear my lovely frens n sweethearts,

i already hv my own ways n i love it so much..guys, tym is running out.so, i dun wanna waste it.i'll not further my study cuz i wanna search the meaning of life, hv fun n learn how to be a better person.

p/s :

love, laugh n cry wit full of ur heart.

LIFE doesnt last foreva.

derrr~~

2010-04-03T12:34:00.000-07:00

Strange Survey.

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work? - errr...mungkin saya pernah suatu ketika dahulu...
What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you’ve dated? - saya 20yrs n dye 24yrs..kire la..
Ever been in a car wreck? - yesss..not juz a car , but a lorry also.
Were you popular in high school? - nope.
Have you ever been on a blind date? - ya n bley tak girl tu ckp dye dpt num fon sy kt dalam toilet..zzzz.
Are looks important? - goyeah.
Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more?? - many of them.
By what age would you like to be married? - paling koman 27 laa..
Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them? - yes...!!!!
Have you ever made a mistake? - tiap² hari.
Are you a good tipper? - not good enough.
What's the most you have spent for a haircut? - wax nye.
Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? - sape yang ta pna enn..
Have you ever peed in public? - tak kot.
What song do you want played at your funeral? - song otak kau..kau igt aku kafir ke.
Would you tell your parents if you were gay? - tidakkk!!
What would your last meal be before getting executed? - mom's cookin.
Beatles or Stones? - stonesssss..hehe..
If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who? - yahudi lahanat tu la.
Beer, wine or hard liquor? - coke boley..?
Do you have any phobias? - piluphobia , lipasphobia n also drive kete phobia sket kott..
What are your plans for the future? - muahahahahhahaha...!!!
Do you walk around the house naked? - sumtyms when im alone.
If you were an animal what would you be? - tiger or bear...roAr~
Hair color you like on someone you're dating? - janji mak dye tak marah if men colour² rambut nih.
Would you rather be blind or deaf? - deaf.
Do you have any special talents? - saya bley buat org benci saya dengan skali pandang je.
What do you do as soon as you walk in the house? - walking..err..
Do you like horror or comedy? - both
Are you missing anyone? - my syg
If you weren't straight, what person of the same sex would you do? - wadepak?!
Where do you want to live when you are old? - kampung ♥
Who is the person you can count on the most? - pkey n mok
If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be? - nora danish
What did you dream last night? - ade orang ajak join boxing ♥
What is your favorite sport to watch? - vola.
Are you named after anyone? - nope.
What is your favorite alcoholic drink? - - - - --
on alcoholic drink? - nope.
Have you ever been in love? - derrrr~~~
Do you sing in the shower? - mesti la.
Have you ever been arrested? - sy bdk indah.
What is your favorite Holiday? - blk kg.
Would you ever get plastic surgery? - nope.
Have you ever caught a fish? - penaahhhh..dolu²..

For you~

2010-02-27T13:45:00.000-08:00

♥ , friendship & tragedy.

I wake up and I think of you.
As pretty as a girl could be so beautiful.
With a smile on your face.
Oh God, you make me fall in love!!~~

So many of us are out there feel the pain
Of losing what was there

Oh Cinta,
I want you to stay in my life.
I need you as you need me.
You made my dreams come true.

I promised myself.
As a human being who is not perfect enough for u.
I'll try my best to hold your hands and fly together.

For You~

p/s :

Saia ♥ kamu ~ Humaira Ahmad

hidup

2010-02-17T14:16:00.000-08:00

org da benci.
nk buat cane.
takkan nk benci dye blk.
tambah dose jep.
byk lagi bende tak settle nih.

membuat keputusan.
pilihan memilih.
mane satu?
keputusan yg agak berat.
up and down.
d colours of life.

hidup susah.
camne tanak susahkan org lain.
life must go on.
wut will happen.
i hv to face it.

p/s;

love.friendship.tragedy & FAMILY

♥ Nilai Kasih Sayang ♥

2010-02-15T05:33:00.000-08:00

best cite ni.
jupe kt cik ain loma nye fb..
enjoy..

Pada suatu hari di sekolah, seorang murid bertanya pada gurunya. Ketika itu guru tersebut sedang mengajar mengenai kasih sayang...

MURID : "Cikgu, mcm mana kita nk pilih s'sorang yang terbaik sbg org yg paling kita syg? Mcm mana juga kasih syg itu nk berkekalan?"

CIKGU : "Ok, kamu ikut ape yg sy suruh. Kamu pergi ke padang, kamu berjalan di atas rumput sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu. Pilih yg PALING cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walau sekali. Dah petik rumput yang PALING cantik, bawa ke kelas."

Apabila murid tersebut pulang, tiada sehelai rumput pun di tangannya. Cikgu bertanya "kenapa tiada rumput yg dipilih?"

MURID : "Tadi masa saya berjalan, saya carilah rumput yg paling cantik, mmg ada byk yg cantik tp cikgu kata petik yg PALING cantik, maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yg paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lg. Tapi, sampai dipenghujung padang, saya tak jumpa pun paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yg belakang saya tadi rumput yg paling cantik tapi cikgu dh ckp jgn menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yg boleh saya petik..."

CIKGU : "Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya apabila kita telah berjumpa dgn s'sorang yg kita syg, jgnlah kita mencari lg yg lebih baik dari itu. Kita patut hargai org yg berada di depan kita sebaik²nya. Jgn kita menoleh ke belakang lg kerana yg dh berlaku tetap dh berlaku. Semoga yg berlalu takkan berulang lg. Dan ingatlah, org yg paling kita syg itulah yg paling baik dan paling cantik. Maupun jika nk di ikutkan ramai lg yg cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi...."

Ouh Bulan !

2010-02-13T12:19:00.000-08:00

LOVE.friendship.tragedy

sentuhanmu
bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
yang membuatku tak kuasa

di setiap alir darahku
tersimpan di hati kecilku
bahwa dirimu terindah untukku

selagi tuhan masih mengizinkan

p/s :

♥ ♥ ♥

Love , Friendship & Tragedy.

2010-02-06T10:47:00.000-08:00

Love Friendship & Tragedy.

One quote that perfectly describes my life.
This week.
Kesedihan dan kehilangan yang amat terasa dan nyata.
Cuz there is no more u.
I cant believe.
The moment we had a fight.
is the last conversation between u n me.
n I cant believe.
The last tym i saw u.
is the last moment of u n me.

I'll not forget the moment when we were together, writing together n laugh together.
I'll not forget our promises, mission n vision.
n I'll not forget that we have been together.
I love you so much n im fuckin mish u bro.

Love Friendship & Tragedy.

p/s :

I'm so so sory bro
sory for what i've done to u
sory that im hurting u

Pon pon pata pon~

2010-01-28T17:04:00.000-08:00

pata pata pata pon ..
pata pata pata pon ..
pon pon pata pon ..
pon pon pata pon ..
chaka chaka pata pon ..
pata pata pata pon ..
pon pon pata pon ..
pon pon pata pon ..
chaka chaka pata pon ..
boom boom boom~~~~

wee~~~~

bangun pagii..
tayah mandi..
tp wangi²..
pegi joginnn..
larii²..
terbang tinggi...

wee~~~~

skrip nk submit petang nnt..
tapi tak siap lagii..
matiiii......!!

wee~~~~

mcm gampang.

sy tidak reti lah nk rahsia²..
itu bukan cara sy..
jangan laaa...

p/s :

tolong laaa
satu² ok
tamau byk² lagiii
nnt lain yang jadii

my love affairs ♥

2010-01-16T12:31:00.000-08:00

" siapakah kekasih anda sekarang? "

itu la isu dan soalan yg sering ditujukan kepadaku everytym start sem..
haihhh..
pnatt sy nk menjawabnye da..

bile tak jawab kontroversi lah jadinye..
bile menjawabb...
kne bahan lagi ade laaa....
adoyaiii~

" c'mon la babe , da # taun lebih , takkan tade lagi kott "

well~
bout my love affairs.
bukannya memilih..
bukannya jual mahal..
tetapi tu lahh..
i dunno how to feel it..
i dunno how to show it..
cuz there's no love anymore..
hurmm..

skang ni sume org sebok cite pasal colour of their life.
i looked at my closet..
n its all black..
my attires , mostly are black.
a few white n purple maybe..
zzzz..
blackk..
that's my life colour now.
penting ke..?
tipu la if sume black en..
ade la sket wane wani.

btw..
who doesn't want a relationship rite..
tetapi tu lah..
it's me.
only me.
yang ta pena puas ingin menjadi yang terbaik.
yang ta pena puas inginkan yang terbaik.

p/s :

hubungan antara lelaki dan wanita bukan hanya sekadar cinta.

still the same.

2010-01-08T14:44:00.000-08:00

new sem , new year n still the old shit.

im so sad cuz people still n always judge me by my face..huuu..im not d old ja'a..cant u see that guys..??knape korg still pandang aku jahat..im not a gangster n im not a playerr lagii..!!!susahnya haih nk jadi baik...aku tulis dalam blog..aku penakut..??janganlah..jangan sampai aku ckp depan² ngan korg..nnt gadoh kang..nk tgk samseng aku ke..??aku tak takot la ngan korg walau korg besar mane pon..aku tak gentar lah nak gadoh ngan korg..nak pukul aku..bak datang...!!!!kau bukak baju kau aku bukak baju aku..mari dtg satu satu.. pukul aku biar sampai mati..if aku tak mati..engkau yg mati..taaaak cemas laaa...nak gangbang aku..mari~aku back up bessar..triad ok...!!bukan adik beradik..tp aku tak suke la gadoh..aku syg kwn²..bkn snang aku nk dpt kawan cam korg..aku sanggup dimaki , dihanjeng , dipijak , diludah bagai..aku tak kesah sume tuh..janji korg happy..so sad la siall..i juz need a 2nd chance..2nd change to show to u guys that i had change..bukan salah korg pon...sume mmg salah aku~~

new sem , new year n still the old shit.

♥

2009-12-31T23:41:00.000-08:00

last year.
how was it goin..?
urm..
listen..
* ouh yaa..
both song are in chipmunk version..
hahhaa...

Kiis Me Honey - Hanya Kamu

aku selalu nyatakan padamu
aku cinta padamu
tak pernah ku terniat
untuk menduakan dirimu

sayangku kepadamu
bak luas langit nan biru
izinkan diriku
tuk menebus kesilapan yang lalu

when i close my eyes
u always in my mind
i wish my dream comes true
to be wit u

oh kasih maafkanlah aku
kau umpama bintang di angkasa
yang bersinar hanya untukku

hanya kamu hanya satu
di dalam hatiku ini
tiada yg lain

hanya kamu.

Kiis Me Honey - Bitter Farewell

we had a fight that day
surrounded by a murky starlight
u ripped my heart away
why must u ran away

im hoping on ur faith
to claim the love that u had break
why did u leave me
cuz i cant let u free

come back to me
give me all all ur misery
this bitter farewell
its all about love tragedy

this new year.
how is it will goin..?
still da same thing..??
still lying on da ground n watching at da same star..

01.01.10

need to change..
new life , n still the old love..
hehe..

p/s :

those song i wrote juz for her
n to tell her that i still love her n cant let her go
boleh tak??
thx to my boys cuz play the song eventho tak siap sgttt

♥♥♥

Away~~

2009-12-08T02:39:00.000-08:00

i am so bzz rite now..
fucking tired n luv it..
practikal mode....
urm..
nop..
working mode..
yeah..
fast game team..fast game..
18 days to go..
this is the tym..

to leave them behind.

am i running away..??
hurm..

p/s:

eventho ppl always run away from me..
i dont like running away..
so tired lah..
urm..
am i running away..?

December

2009-12-07T10:08:00.000-08:00

well..

it's december already..
urm..
12..
December.
12.12..

5 days more to go..
its almost a year.
but i still cant forget this date.

12/12/08

kau beri rasa yg berbeda
mungkin ku salah
mengertikannya yang ku rasa cinta

ouh..
i still can see me stood under a street light.
surrounded by a murky starlight.
n we had a fight that day.
i tried to talk to u slowly n careful as i can.
so i wont hurt u wit my words cuz i really need u n im sooo in love wit u.
i still remember the conversation between us.
n it's not juz about us.

1st tym i heard u cry.
1st tym u yelled at me.
n 1st tym u really mad at me.

pernah ada rasa cinta
antara kita kini tinggal kenangan
ingin kulupakan semua tentang dirimu
namun bayangmu slalu ada dalam setiap langkahku

im so sad.
n im crying too..
cuz im so intoo u n i love u wit full of my heart,.

untill now ..

p/s :

mengape tuhan jadikan kita hanya dengan satu hati..?

cepu cemas.

2009-11-25T19:10:00.000-08:00

Soalan cepu cemass...

Who is getting on your nerves right now?
-

urmm..
i still confius bout this question since last year..
ade 2 answers jep bile aku tanye member².
but i still dont got it.

ouh.
forget it.
btw .
baru² ni..
bukan baru laa.
dlm 3 weeks nih..
bile i nek kete jep ngan membe²..
slalu i nek kete sume ngan racer² en..
bile dyorg speeding nak mampos...
tetibe i terasa takot plak.
tatau nape...
selame ni ok jep..
syok bile mencelah² di traffic en..
tp tu laaa..
this lately cemas semacam jep..haaa..

semalam i titon ngan kwn i sorg nih..
lame da ta jumpe dye...
so ktorg sembang² la pasal keje n sume² tu..
then tetibe dye ckp kt i..
if nk bercinta.
sediakan rakit cinta.. <--- cannot go.
so nnt tak hanyuuttt.. haaaaaa..tau lah tgh in love en dye tu..
tu bg dye laaa..
bg i..
sediakan kapal selam.
walau badai ribut melandaa..
still saveee..... lg selamaaaaaaaattttttt.........
sambil menyelam.. minum airrr~~

ouh²..
smlm.. before i went to sleeppp..
i penat , lemau sume² tu en.
n i really need to talk wit sum1..
kwn² i sume da titon..
so..
i check my contact list...
cari laaa num sape² yg i nk kacau...
hurm..
cam xde sape jepp nk call..
cuz byk da contact num yg i blacklist kn..
maksud blacklist tuu bukan nye mean cam musuh².
tp mean " hak milik org len " .. hehu...
tak paham g mamposs..
then i found this 1 num..
i knal dye..dye knal i..
&& i tau story² pasal dye skett² n same goes to her...
dye pom student at puncak gak..tp ta pnaa lepak..
yelaa..student acc en...ahuhu..
so i call dye..hahha..
she's so sengalll..
dye tanye nape i call dye..
i ckp..
" anggap this is like foreign to foreign conversation. "
kind of syok weyh..
korg bley cerita everything kt foreigner..
dyorg juz buat² paham jep..
tu la salah satu redakan tekanan..
hahaha..

byk da merepek nih..
daaa~~

p/s:

sy kegemukan.

Kejutan O_o

2009-11-21T13:27:00.000-08:00

im totally terkejut.
ini adalah jeritan terkejut yg terkumpul bg minggu ini..

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrggghhhhhhhhhhhh..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and ini kejutan untuk hari ni yg byk gak terkejut la sy..

Huuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Byk nye kejutan mnggu nihh..haih -.-"
tatau nk cite yg mane satu cuz its all full wit controversi n byk ' things ' yg terbang....

story nya~~

Tadi g tgk bola kt artamas square nun...
tym tgh park kete..
tetibe ade kete buat gangster plak nk parking skali ngan kitorg..
siot jep..
pastu mamat dlm tu usha² panas plak..
then i kuar la dari kte..
pastu tetibe ade org pggl name sy..
sy pom pandanglahh..
wahhhhh<--- kejutan pertama..
rupanya yg pggl sy itu BOB..kwn abg sy..lame ta jumpe dye.
patut la park kete pom cam gangster..da mmg gangster pom..
hehuuuuuu...n berat badan dye semakin..
terbang tinggi<--- terbangan pertama.
then tgk la vola..
arsenal vs sunderland..
waaaahhhhhhh.........<-- kejutan kedua..
arsenal kalah...ahahhahahhahaha..
arsenal terbang ke bawah carta <-- terbangan dua..
pastu Man U plak lawan..
hehoheho <--- kejutan ketiga..x terkejut sgt laa..
Man u menang dowh..
Man U dpt terbang ke atas carta <--terbangan ketiga..

cerita tambahan..

td pkey g bli kad uno tym tgk vola tuh..
huiihh..
da lupe da cane men uno tu..
last men pom tym darjah 6..
hahaha..sokay..so blaja men lg skali..
byk gak la menang...
pasni nak men kad happy family plak nxt tym lepak..hahhaa...
suggestion nnt nak try tuka style plak..
tym lepak tanak men card cam org len,,
kitorg nak men dam ular...
lg syyyoookkk~~~~~~~ hehu...
ok...

kejutan yg sebenar...
jerit jap....

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh........??????!!!!!!!!

lepas sampai umah lepas abes tgk vola td..
kwn i yg bffffffff tu ade call..
dye nak pinjam acc facebook jap..
dye ckp nk buat pe tah..
dye nk tgk profile sorg girl camtu kot..
tp dye ta cite lg hal sebenar kat i...
sokay la en..
then i feel cam sumtin yg tak kena..
so i on9 la jap..
i tgk la profile kwn i tuh...

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&....
ini kejutan keempat..
kejutan agak maut la jugak...

Huaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................ahhahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhahahhahahahah.......................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt terkejut na mapos..
tp ta mampos sgt la sbb cam da expect bende ni dari awal en..
rupe² nye dlm hati ada cinta gitu..
then sbb terkejut sgt..
i trus update blog nih...
ahhahaahhahahha..
sokay la u..
u tak cite lg pom i cam da dpt tau daaa..
haaaaaaaaa.......................

" bila kita tutup mata kasar , mata hati akan terbuka..
bila mata hati suda terbuka..
semua yang mata kasar tak nampak akan kita nampak.. "

p/s :

ouh ya
lupa pule terbangan yg keempat
terbangan yg paling tinggi sekali tuu
sampai boleh capai bulan dan bintang
tinggi tuu
kan deana kan
hehe

Ada apa dengan nama o0o

2009-11-19T08:34:00.000-08:00

Haih..
Im so tired..
But..
Im happy cuz i got a lot of knowledge and also new NICKNAMES.
The names that given to me are so irretating but .. i'd learn to like it.n day by day.i can accept it.

Jak

Jak is given to me by Abg Baq - U - the low profile pro cam man.
He is so nice n byk pot pet pot pet to us.
He called me Jak cuz its hard for him to call me ja'a. -.-' pe yg susahnye aku pom tatau.
I dun like people call me Jak cuz 1 of my fren yang totally busuk call me by that name also.
I always avoid him.but he is my classmate btw..taaaakk elooook~ ckp dye busuk.

Jason

Jason plak..
haih.
sounds like so crist u kno.
i kind of hate it.
but..
accept je la..
Jason is given to me by Abg Lan - the boom man.
he's sooo kering and looks like batang boom also..hehehe..
gile Abg Lan tuh..
He called me by that name cuz he forgot my name and juz remeber the word J.
and gave the " crist sounds like " name to my bff also.
He called fath as Joseph , lan as Gabriel and Helmi as Xavier.
banging kan.
tu tym dye tgh gyle and bengong.

both Jason and Jak are my nicknames while in production.
but in office..
urggh..
eventho that name sounds so cool but i hate it cuz...

Don Sa Le ( Bi )

Don Sa Le and Don Sa Le Bi are stand for ..
urm..
haha.
biar la rahsia..
btw..
i like how its sound eventho the meaning is so humiliating.
Don Sa Le.
agagaga..
bongong dyorg nih

p/s :

cb.
diu.
ham+chan.
ngong.
ngek.
oOo.
t(-.-t)

Mes Square

2009-11-03T23:47:00.000-08:00

Haih..
da start practikal..
sgt SYOK~~~

byk bende sy blaja even baru 2 hari je kt sane.
syok..
dyorg sume sporting..
termasuk bos² sy..
hehe.
byk ayat baru juga sy blaja..
like menyun , jandal n mcm² lg.
ckp pasal ayat baru blaja..
ahaha..

aritu i ngan cha n pkey g jln² kl...
mule² g mkn kt segambut..
then trus grak artamas..
bosannye~~~
abis satu kl kitorg ronda².
then tym tu kt cheras au..
da nk kuar cheras da nih..
i saw 1 building yg tinggi dari jauh..
kt top of the building ade la signboard building tu..
bercahaye biru.
i nampak cam SOLARIS..
so i cam pelik lah..
i ta pna dgr building name solaris kt ctu..
i tak pandang sekeliling pom.
i pandang je la building tu sampai nk dkat..
sbb i rabun jauh.
nk tau gak en name building tu..
tym nk dkat building tu.
tetibe solaris tu jadi SQUARE.
ouh..teruk gak rabun i nih.
i tatau plak square pe an..
lpas tu..
da dkat..
btul² bawah building tuh..
i nampak MES SQUARE plak.
ouh..
building nih MES SQUARE..
i sebut la kuat² n tanye kwn² i tu building ape.
then dyorg gelak cam nak mampos..
dyorg ckp kuat²..

" TU BUKAN MES SQUARE , TU TIMES SQUARE LA UDANG...!! "

la..
i tgk surround i..
baru i prasan da sampai simpang besar times square..
i tgk blk btul² building tu..
rupe²nye huruf TI dye tak berlampu.
rosak..
ngok.
pastu i maki la tyms square tu..
siot..
rabun rupenya.ahuhuhuu..

Mes square = Times square
Menyun = Menyundal
Jandal = Jantan Sundal.

p/s :

bahasa menunjukkan bangsa.
budi bahasa budaya kita.

SHOES.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-28T05:32:00.000-07:00

Dear my lovly fucking shit.

U know it rite.
every1 hv their own shoes.
me also hv my own shoes.
n need to take gud care of it.
dun mess up wit my shoes.
cuz u kno me rite.

hurm..
like u said.
i knew things.
i knew everything rite..!!

it's not the ' things ' yg berubah.
it's u..
u need to walk back through ur memories..
u'll got it..
or u need me to tell u..?

girl..

plsss..
in ur situation..
i know wut's wrong n wut's rite.
cuz im a boy..!!
u know me well rite..
but u r not listen to me.
listen..
u need to listen carefully..

u know..
u r so damn selfish girl.
cuz of 1 guy.
u changed.
i hate it so much.
u had change a LOT..!!
n its all not worth it.
I REALLY hate it.
wut u got..
wut DID u GOT girl..??!!!!
like u said before..
i KNEW everything.....
YES..
i KNEW EVERYTHING..!!!!!

u NEED to face d fact.
it's not worth for u n ur SHOES..

yeah..
u can say it..
i had change too..
cuz of 1 girl..
but i STIL GOT my shoes on.
cuz im not change into sumthing so DAMN FUCKING SHIT PEOPLE..!!

it is not about u and ur sadness n shoes..
how bout us....
US...!!!
dun u eva think we're not loving u.
oh gosh..
u make me sad..
im afraid things not gonna be the same anymore.

Uhuk

2009-10-24T20:05:00.000-07:00

Uhuk..
sbnarnye da lama da nk upload video nih..
tade pe pom..
saje je..

Date - Wed, 22 April 09
Venue - Hartamas Square
Motif - UEFA Final, Man U vs Barca

Man Bai ( cannot go )

Glory - glory Man U

uhu..
mule2 i ngan alip ( 3rd bro ) n pkey nk g tgk kt AC je..
tp sbb AC tu ramai plak org en n tade tempat na duduk..
that tym i pom call la abg2 i yg lg 2 org tuh..
elok plak dyorg de kt artamas n de seat..
so ktorg pe lg..
trus tembak g hartamas..
ahaha..
da duduk2 tu..
sementera nk tggu game on..
dj bley plak pasang lagu Man U..
so pe lg..
sume org kt square tu nyanyi.( peminat Man U je ea )
lepas tu suansana agak tegang..
then dj pasang lagu Man Bai..
ahahha..
taley blah..
aritu ujan lebat jugak lak en..
dgr la suara2 sumbang kt video tu.
eventho Man U kalah..
haih..
tape la..
asek menang je en..
bg la org len plak..

Menggapai bintang.

2009-10-17T18:48:00.000-07:00

I admit that i still love her and pretending like im so happy without her.

and now..

Im juz lying on the ground looking up to the sky and keep staring at the same star and waiting and waiting and waiting till the seas run dry. I juz can watch. Im totally miss her. Who cares. I dunno lah.

p/s :

Mish u la .nyet

12/10

2009-10-12T23:18:00.000-07:00

12/10

Never - ending date.

Story that never ends.

Always in my ♥

Nice to meet ya.

----------------------------------------------------------

24/10/2008

Still can't forget the way you say goodbye.

nice chat i have wit you.

actually.

it was 12 Oct 2008.

Sunday.

not 10 Oct.

i like you bcoz of the way u are..!

Perah santan

2009-10-04T06:52:00.000-07:00

aritu pegi sunway..
tgk dyorg men snooker..
bosannya~~
ta dapat masuk sbb sy pakai short..
so pe lagi..
jln² la dengan si dia..
kenal kan..

hiding behind my little bag..
dlm tu ade man stuff..
cam purse , rokok , lighter n my phone..
nn dye ckp bag tu cute..
ala..
pic ni ta nampak sgt muke dye..

Ouh..
dye plak men nyorok²..
so ta nampak lg muke dye..
suda gemok la sy..

di sebalik munge² indah..
dye poyo² majuk dengan memalingkan muke..

tym nih tgh menunggu..
ceh..
dyorg tah abis lg mesnookerkan diri..
sian dye pom pnat gak tggu..

Ooops..
haih..
ta nampak lg muke dye..
sape la edit..
so tatau sape an..
biarlah rahsia..
nk tau msg la..
agagagaga...

to deana :

tgk pic last nih..
badan i tuh..
ahaha...
ta buncit ok..

p/s :

buah keranji di atas papan
jangan la nak perasan

i am a boyman

2009-09-26T13:24:00.000-07:00

Sy keliru..
ramai kwn sy ckp..
sy hanya bleh jadi teman kwn special saja..
bawah sket dari taraf boyfrens..

Zzz...
taraf..?!

mengapa hek..?
sy hanya layak menjadi teman special je..?
means mcm kwn gay dyorg..?
adakah sy ni gay..?

ouh..
kerna..

sy diberitahu..
sy seorang tiada perasaan..
sy jual mahal..
sy hanya mampu jadi kwn baik je...

takpe la weyh..
ade aku kesah..?
cak cak cak..
ahahha...

---------------------------------------------

ade hari tu..
sy kenal 2 org..
dalam sebulan tu la..
both kwn baik..
and rapat gak ngan sy
1 of them ade tanye..
camne bley nk kwn ngan dyorg..
i said..
" sbb sesiapa yg i nk kwn , mesti dapat..including u both. "

---------------------------------------------

Im a boy
i live wit my boys
coz they r my life till now

Im a boy
i sing n dance wit my boys
coz they chill my life

Im a boy
I dont talk wit strangers
coz im priceless

Im a man
i care so much bout girl
coz i need a girl

p/s :

i am insan biasa.

Zzz

2009-09-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

Enjoy this video..
btw..
bukan sy yg ajar eh cucu pak ngah nih.
dye mmg hebat bergojet..
dan mempersembahkan tarian dye kt bajet anak raja baju kunin tu..

rasa pedih tak terungkap

2009-09-23T14:10:00.000-07:00

Lena Mawarku - Zip Zieller

Jiwa gundah gulana
takkan mati sengsara
ingin capai kau bunga di syurga
hati kosong berlabuh
dari awalan dulu
jalan gelap kau ku rasa

mungkin cara pengampun
dalam hati yang lumpuh
bebaskan ku dari rakus dosamu
terang sinar mu terik
dalam pedoman diri
rasa pedih tak terungkap

lena mawarku dalam debu
lena mawarku kau ratu

ego lalu berlalu
kerna sifat ku layu
cuba singkap ia kembali darimu
langkah teguh ku longlai
hanya tunggu terlerai
rasa gelap dalam siang tersadai

pergi kau angin lalu
corak satu persatu
biarkan ia dapat kembali darimu
jiwa ronta tersedar
nak hidup dah sudah
hidup kembali cahaya di dada

lena mawarku dalam debu
lena mawarku kau ratu

Semalam tgh sembang - sembang dengan dye..
teringat dkat lagu nih..
byk makne yg mendalam dkt lagu nih..
lirik ni tade kt memane ...
da try cari , tp ta dpt..
so , ade kot silap sket pe yg sy tulis..
hurm...

" Bermatian dan bersushan menjaga
hati setia insan
hutang budinya dibawa mati. "

tuan puteri..
org ckp pape pom..
kwn² u tau sape u kn..
nite..
mimpi indah~

p/s :

hilangkan segala resah
semoga lena mawarku

Raya

2009-09-21T12:09:00.000-07:00

For more pic..
usha kt facebook..
hugmeashton@yahoo.com

My Family

Front : Kie my 5th bro , mama , babah n Yol my last bro
Back : Eram my 1st bro , Alip my 3rd bro , me n Adan my 2nd bro.

4 Bahaya - Anak² Razid ( bOtak )

Jaa , Alip , Eram n Adan

Tahun ni ktorg 4 orang jadi kaum kerabat..
hehe..
sume pakai kunin..ahuhu..
my younger brohers plak spoil..
pakai baju wane lain..
sebok jep nk ikut gf memasing..
gelabah je..
both tu anak angkat.!!
ahahaha..
gurau je..
btw..
thx to eram sbb sponsor baju raya n kasut raye n also mlm 1st raye tuu...
wawawa..
Selamat Hari Raye sume
Maaf Ampun dipinta mane yg salah silap sy ea..

p/s :

Raye ni asek teringat dye jep
knal dye tym raye kot hee
rindunye~

If i should die

2009-09-07T16:54:00.000-07:00

If I should die this very moment
I wouldn't fear
If you hold my hands

Could we stay right there
Until the end of time until the earth stops turning
Wanna love you until the seas run dry

All this time I've loved you n missed you
you are true peace
makes my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul

The one I've waited for

2009-08-18T13:16:00.000-07:00

hurm..
ego..
knape ego sgt..?
camne nk describe ego tu..?
camne nk tau ape yg kte buat tu base on ego..?

haih..
$sy ckp..
sy tanak.. ( tp hati mau )
dye bitau sy..
itu ego..
haih..
dye tanye..

" ape soalan yg kau nk tanye if jumpe dye ? "

jika sy jumpe dye..
sy ingin tanye..

awak sehat..?
how's ur life..?
i mish u a lot..do u..? ( ta kan kot..prasan lebih je )
mkn suda..?
camne study..?
ur love story..?

hurm..
byk nye nk tanye..
sy tahan..
tatau knape..
sy bley tahan..
sy telah ajar diri sy untuk menempuh saat seperti itu..
ego ke..?
itu yg sy tatau tu..

18/08 - 1.30 a.m aritu tade keje pegi men drift..
eventho menumpang je.. ( sbb if aku bwk kete tu terbang nnt )
sgt syok..
drift sane..
drift sini..
then..
terbabas..
agak cemas juge..
pokok itu sblah sy saje..
ahahahha..
gyle..
bley mati oouhhh..
seb baek tak cedera pape..
juz jln cam robot sket ah...
ahuhuhu..

hari itu.
sy tgh marah marah kerna ....
at d same tym.
ade org tgh tggu sy..
sy marah marah..
sy g jumpe dye..
sy suruh dye tggu kjap kerna sy nk pegi marah marah..
lpas tu..
sy jumpe org tu blk..
sy masih dlm mood marah marah lg..
dye suruh sy calm down..
thx..
sy dpt control marah sy n trus blah g mkn ..
lepas few days camtu kot..
tgh on call nih.
dye ckp..
dye takut tgk sy marah marah..
dye tamau tgk sy marah marah..
sbb sy bukan seorg yg snang nk marah..
mase tu..
sy rase mcm..
bile sy marah..
sy akan jadi monster yg menakutkan rakyat sekalian..

sy sungguh rasa bersalah sgt..
tp tu lah..
bagi sy tak salah untuk marah marah if bukan salah kte..
org tak sentuh sy..
sy tak sentuh org..
hurm..
well..
sy takut nk tanye lah..
u single..?
ahuhuhuhu...

change

2009-08-01T13:21:00.000-07:00

i ade satu cite dowh..

Ade 2 tears ni mengalir in 1 river..1 tear of gadis n 1 tear of a guy.Nak buat cite , tym tu airmata gadis mengalir kt sblah airmata laki tuh.Then diorg berkenalan lah sesama airmata.Tear of laki tuh tanye lah tear of gadis tu lepas dorg berkenalan..

Laki : Hey..i wonder la..knape u mengalir..mengape menangis..?
Girl : urm..i baru reject sorg guy nih..
Laki : Then..?knape u yg nangis..
Girl : its hard for me la ngeng..Igt snang ke nk reject2 bestfren nih..feel so guilty ok..
Laki : ouh..i tau..ade ke slame ni dye ckp u as his bestfren..?
Girl : u bising ah..u plak ..?mengape menangis..?
Laki : i baru kne reject dgn 1 girl ni yg i rase can perfect my life..
Girl : no wonder u nangis..ni lah laki..takleyh face d fact..u kwn jep la ngan dye..
Laki : u ckp snang ah..bende da takkan same da..sbb i mmg niat nk cinta dye..
Girl : niat u je u pk..niat dye plak u tanak pk..nk jd u nye bestfren..
Laki : ckp la ape pom..i tak tipu diri i..
Girl : i pom tak tipu diri i..i juz cant accept him..dunno y..

end of story.

mlm smlm..
ade org call sy..
dye ckp dye terbace blog sy.
haha..
lawak jep dye..
blog ni mmg untuk dibace lah..
if tak xkan i nk kasi org tgk kot..
hurm..
dye ade cite prob dye kt sy..
so mcm biase..
i kne lah dgr..( aku tade gf lagi jgn korg pggl aku Doc tuuuutt... )
hahaha..

i sembang2 lah dgn dye dlm fon lbih kurg sejam stengah lebih la..
byk kedit dye -.-"
huhu..

syok sembang dgn dye..
story dye same like mine..
cume this tym lain sket..
the other side..
pihak gadis..
dye ckp ... .. . ... ... ... .. .. .. .. .. ... ... .. ... .. mn bla bla bla..

ouh..
i tau..
mmg susah en nk reject seseorg tu..
rase tersepit je..
bitau salah.
tak bitau pom salah..
now i kno her feelin.
so so so sory..
nk buat cane..
kne face the fact..
sbb org tu tak leyh nk face the fact mcm i dulu.
ahaha..
dah in love sgt en..

ble kte tau org tu yg kte cari slame nih
mmg susah nk lepaskan dye
walau pom org tu ckp tidak
kte still go on n try bg segalanya
hoping dye accept the love

hee.
u tayah risau lah.
cume mase je yg jd penghalangnya..
atleast u tak lari dari masalah u..
u brani jumpe dye n face d fact that he love u..
n u plak u juz anggap dye kwn baik..
i da phm both situation da..
this is not love false.
haha...
stop crying ok.
things gonna be ok.
i pray for u..
haih..
u mesti pna dgr org ckp camni en..

' Chillex ah dear.U kan muda lagi.Enjoy ur life.Tayah pikir mende2 tu sume '

Itu lah kata2 yg sering i dengar bile mereka tau i post blog yg patah2 hati n sedih2 nih..
haha..
bile muda je mesti enjoy..
bile enjoy je muda..
tua2 takley enjoy..?
muahahahha..
hurm entahlah..
masa muda mmg fun en..
tp acamne esok luse dah tade..?
hah.?!
tgh2 enjoy tetibe kajong plak en..
hah.?!
itu yg sy tatau tu..

hee..
btw..
thx la honey2 kuh..
ahuhu..
korg mmg fun..
&& fygi..
ex-schoolmate sy tuh hanyalah teman suka duka saja..
dye dah ade boyfie okeh..

"it is da'sweetest tyme when we became frens...but it change when it comes to b a special one..."

p/s :
Laugh love n cry wit all ur heart.
Life doesnt last forever.

Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku..?

2009-07-30T15:45:00.000-07:00

I juz read my oldest entry that i'd post on 13 Nov 08..
its titled ' Dear Gadis '..
n in that entry stated words that telling her why do i love her..
n then i read all my entries that i'd post bout her n how much i need her..

Wut d hack im telling u guys bout this..

it's bcoz there r 1 fren who is my ex-schoolmate b4 n we're getting closer..
we shared our probs together n try to chill each other..
she'd mention 1 statement that makes me feels so so sakit hati n guilty..

' Boleh ke i caye kat u..?i takot u ja'a yg dulu je '

Yes..
I pon takot if i jaa yg dulu..
im not blaming her if she said like that..
coz i can face the fact n tried to change..

I always walked back through my memories to see wut i'd miss n lost..
I tried to be a better person and it's still not good enough..
not good enough to impress her n everyone that were on my way..
i hurted my self n keep trying till i got wut i want..

then i realize that evrything in this world has its limit..
hurm..

I juz walked back through my memories..
n i hope i'll not do the same mistakes..

p/s :

Not good enough is better than
trying to be so perfect

2009-07-30T13:39:00.000-07:00

We live in our own ways

hanya kamu

2009-07-28T13:31:00.000-07:00

sayangku kepadamu
bak luas langit nan biru
izinkan diriku
tuk menebus kesilapan yang lalu

( this is superb song.Love it~)

Hurm..
My love story almost done..
but i dunno how to end it..
i tot i could meet her..
so i can end up my love story..
but..
like ppl always said..

' we juz can plan it , but God decide it samada it done or not ' ( btul x grammar..?)

Huhu..
entahla..
so..
i hv decided to juz let God do its job..

Im hoping on your faith
to claim the love that you'd break
why did you leave me
coz i can't let u free

(Love this song also~)

Yeah..

Im juz hoping je..
hoping on ur faith n mine..
coz..

Diorang slalu ckp :

1. sudahlah..xyah nk seksa diri lagi..
2. kau sakit² pasal dye buat pe..?ade dye sakit sbb kau..?
3. better u move on jep..
4. aku x paham la ngan kau nih..buang mase je..
5. haha..muke dye cam bdk skola lah..

n Diorg slalu marah :

1. pasni nk kuar ngan kitorg kne bwk girl..
2. better kau couple je ngan ***** tu..nk tggu girl tu buat pe..
3. Aku tanak kau moody n sedih pasal dye..
4. g mampos kau..sepak kang..

Come back to me
give me all your misery
This bitter farewell
its all about Love tragedy

(totally addicted to this song)

to conclude :

Chillex ah guys..
i chose this way..
i kno wut im doing..
hehehe~~
later i tell u guys la bout my study..
almost done dowh..
sokay..
i will find a girl..(really?)
masa je penghalangnya..
wawawawa...
&&..
bout the anguish n miseries thingy..
im not suffer it alone la..
if tak xde la i buat sume² tu..

p/s :
if de jodoh..
xkemane kot..

Jangan lah

2009-07-22T07:30:00.000-07:00

Bukan sume bende perlu kita bagitau..
and bukan sume bende kite perlu tau..

but..
Be careful..

Once aku tau bende yg tak patut n aku tak nak tau..
Anything aku can do..
Lautan yang tenang jgn disangka teda buaya..
Jangan ingat kami bodoh..

Jangan pernah lupa kata - kata korg..
Aku pegang sume yang korg kata..
Budak baru belajar..
Belum khatam jgn berani cabar guru..

:)

p/s :

Kerna pulut santan binasa
Kerna mulut hidup sengsara

Saya suda senior weyh..hahah..

2009-07-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

" Damak , panggil sy Damak "

Hee...
sgt syok this week..
jadi fasi for my new juniors..
wawawa...

geli weyh tym dyorg pggl aku abg damak..
haha...

" A'kum Abg Damak ♥ nak sain~~ "

hahahhahaha..
sengal...

tak sangka..

2009-07-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

Tidak pernah ku sangka..
rupanya kau lebih ku cinta..
dari hati yang putih..
ku hadir untukmu sayang..

haha~~

Ahhhh...

2009-07-01T00:49:00.001-07:00

Im so sad n hurt when i heard u said like that..
I cant accept that u r not understand yet the way i am..

Hey..

Why u guys still dont believe me..
Ouh ok..
Cause i neva ask for it..

I know..

A boy like me wont be take seriously..
Sumtimes i act like a fool coz im ufudangfang rite..
Dont u dare to think like i am..
Im mental disorder ( btul x spelling? ) n laugh a lot..
They tot im happy..
but..
Im juz R n R..
haha..
vodo..

p/s :

I'd promise n i still keep it..

What a fool..
so pathetic..

Tagged by bdk PMR ~ amelia xp

2009-06-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

hurm..
currently not in d mood..
err.
haha..
gyle xley control ah..
so malas nk update merepek².
hihi..
chill jap..
lepas gyle da kurg sket..
baru bley menulis kot..
wawawawa..

1 . What have you been doing recently?
geylong besame rakan²...tralalalala~~

2 . Do you ever turn your handphone off?
err..batt kong kire skali tak..?

3 . What happened at 10am today?
sesi luahan perasaan...

4 . When did your last cry?
baru je td..saket perot dowh..kuar air mate sket..

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
YES! both!

6 . What do you want in life now?
tyms..

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
if ade bawak pon tak pakai sgt gak kekdg..haha..syok mandi ujan...

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed?
manja²~

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
putih line merah.

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?
cita dye inbox sy empty la~

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
try ah..syok weyh..

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
kasut..ganjeng alip abgku punye..hahaha..

13. What was the last movie you caught?
entah..

14. What are you proud of?
banyak nok~ espesially my friendships..

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
entah..byk sgt la nyanyi kuat²..tiap² plak tu..

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Mohd Azhar

18. What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
weyh.nt aku nk grk s.alm aku roger korg.pape info aku noh.

19. What time did you go to sleep last night?
u spin my head right round right round when u go down 2x.

20. Are you currently happy?
weng~

21. Who gives you the best advice?

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
mau aja.

23. Who do you talked to on the phone last night?
pkeynyet.

24. Is something bugging you right now?
tiap masa dowh..

25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
my honeys...!!!

26. Do you like yourself?
y not..tp muke pecah ah..ahahha..

27. You want $5 or $10?
sengal gyle kau nih..

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
hahaha...

29. Who is your best best best friend?
sume la..ade la diorg tu..aku je tau ok..

30. What will you do if you like that boy?
roAr~

31. Who are your favourite stars?
bintang yg slalu ade dkat sblah kiri bulan tu..pe tah..lupe name dye..

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some way?
nope n will not..

33. Do you even stead before?
entah la..depend kot..

34. What type of boy do you like?
boy yg muke comel² cam babyface tu nyah..uuhuhh...i like ... arrr....roAr~

35. Now are you single / attached?
Diorg ckp lebih kurang mcm R n R gitu..hahah..rehat n rawat..

geram

2009-06-09T13:51:00.000-07:00

im not that strong.
pls forgive me.
i cant accept u as my bestfren.
bcoz i love u.
n cant stop loving u.

loving u it is because u beautiful
making love with u is all i wanna do
loving u is moment that the dream come true
everything that i do is all loving u

talk bout drugs..
she/he is my/your only drugs..
me/u addicted to him/her..
without my/your drug..
all the misery turn around my/your head..
make me/u feel like crazy..
my/your hand is shaking..
hoping he/she to hold it to make sure everything is alrite..
everyday me/u waiting for her/him..
to call my/your name with full of love..
to say how she/he miss me/you.

Everyday n Everynight

if you can see through my heart
you will see unshaped bleeding heart
it keeps bleeding
like a flowing river that's no end

everyday n everynight
i'll try to forget u
everyday n everynight
i'll cry because of u

i believe on my loyalty
to endure my tears from falling
because it then will flow inside my nerves
straight to my heart like an acid
n burn it like hell

everyday n everynight
i'll fall for u
everyday n everynight
to dream of u is my delight

empty promises by manis

2009-06-08T12:21:00.000-07:00

Empty Promises
song    : Lead
lyrics  : Lead

hey u 
u put me higher on the first day 
and treat me like a king spade
i can see u’re messing around 
but silent keep me rite

hey u 
u touch my feelings softly
pretending like a sweet pill
and wish me to addict it
but i denied

u calling calling, u calling  calling my name
u crying crying, crying crying honey
u calling calling, u calling  calling my name
and its hard to receive

u turn my life n my mind was wrong
i believe i believe  u’re  falling down
i believe i believe u’ll  ask my help
u break my heart my trust has gone
i believe i believe u’re falling down
i believe believe u’ll ask my help
u turn my life
my trust has gone

Cerita dongeng

2009-06-06T13:47:00.000-07:00

i have a story to tell u guys..
i got this story from mane tah dlm tv tu.
sila lah...

" pulau pandan jauh ke tengah
gunung daik bercabang tiga
tak perlulah anda nak bermadah²
hehe cakap aje la "

Crane & Kala Jengking

Pada suatu hari , kj ( kala jengking ) jalan nk pegi rumah macik dye.Then , tym na pegi umah macik dye , traffic jam gyle vavi.So , nak mengelakkan traffic jam , kj ikut la jln jauh , kne masuk hutan.Kj malas nk ikut hutan , sbb kt situ byk binatang buas.Kj pegi la ikut hutan.Tym tu da dekat nk sampai da umah macik dye , tp dye kne lintas sungai yg lebar dan luas atau besar la lebih kurang,Kj da la ta reti brenang sbb dye en KJ. KJ pon pning n lepak² kejap kt ctu.Pastu , tym kj tgh lepak , dye nampak Crane ( sejenis burung ape tah) tgh terbang².kj pom pggl la crane tu.

Kala J : Weyh crane , mai la sat kat aku.
Crane : Wut for..?
Kala J : Minta tolong jap boleyh..?
Crane : Ape dye..?
Kala J : Aku nk g umah macik aku kt seberang sungai tu..tp aku ta reti berenang..
Crane : So..?
Kala J : Ala..tolong la i..pleasee....u bawak i terbang ke seberang..
Crane : Ah..tamau ah..nnt kang kau sengat aku..
Kala J : Weyh..buat pe aku na sengat kau..nnt kang kau jatuh la dlm sungai..mati la kte nnt..
Crane : Zzzzz ( thinking )
Kala J : Boleh la eh..jom la syg..ringan je saye nih..
Crane : Baiklah..sy bwk anda..tp jgn la sengat sy..

Then , crane pon bwk la kj tu terbang.Kj tumpang atas crane.Dipendekkan cerita , on d way nk g seberang tu , tgh syok crane terbang nih..tetibe kj sengat crane tu..tetibe je kj nih..crane pon menyentap la en..tym dyorg tgh menjunam nk masuk dlm sungai tu..

Crane : Weyh kj , kau apehal..?ckp td tanak sengat..kau ni kj ke vavi..?
Kala J : crane..im so so sory..i didnt mean to hurt u..
Crane : Abes nape kau sengat aku..?
Kala J : It's my nature..

It's his nature..
It's her nature..
It's ur nature..
It's my nature..

paham tak cite nih..?
haha..
oint aku nk cite nih kerna pasal..

LUMRAH ALAM

sume org buat kesilapan en..
we're not perfect people..
ni pendapat aku je la en..
aku ta ske ble org ckp kt aku..
laki sume same je..
sumpah aku tak terasa..
tp aku laki en ta ske ah dgr camtu..
sbb aku ta pna berniat nk ckp girls sume same je even aku da kne mcm² from girls..
tayah la cite byk²..
ramai org kt dunia ni..
sume nye berbeza².
tade yg same pom..

the reasons y org ckp lakis/girls sume same je..
sbb diorg ta dpt terime kenyataan..
bile super ego + id maka terhasil la ego ( ni tak pasti la..lupe suda.. )
ego je tuh..
bile da sakit hati en tak dpt ape yg kte nk..( umum ye ni adik² )
bukan masenye lagi la untuk kamu..
tamau eh ckp mcm²..
seperti lakis/girls sume same la..
so parents korg n org² yg korg sanjung also Nabi Muhammad S.A.W tu pon same gak la eh mereka..?
selalunye diorg akan kalis..

" ayah/ibu i same la cam lakis/girls lain..tp tu dulu la.. "

tu dulu..
past..
past is past..
let bygone be bygone..
mat saleh ckp ah en..hee..
so..
ape yg korg kne tu dah lepas..
org tu same ngan lakis/girls yg lain tym tu da lepas da..
sume org buat salah en..
tu salah org tu yg lalu..
skang ni..
mane tau en..
people change..
begitu juga dengan perasaan..
masa je penentunya..
ade yg senang n ade yg susah tuk berubah..

back to the nature..
kamu~
da mmg org tu perangai mcm tu..
u must learn it , live it n love it la..
give him/her another change..
bukan senang nak buat org berubah..
n bukan senang nak org ikut acamne cara kte berfikir..
bila tiba waktunya..
org tu akan sedar n berubah sendiri..
communication is an important part..
discuss ye adik²..
hee..
it is his/her nature da camtu..
so deal wit it..
tamau eyh ckp² kutuk² n rendah² kan org..

taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak elok..!!!

tak perlu eyh adik² untuk sume org tau..
dan bukan sume bende kte bley cite kt org en..
and tak sume bende kte patut tau..
akan tetapi..
bila masing² sudah merasakannya..
apa salahnya..
cakap je la..
bak kata Amy~
jgn ikutkan hati follow ur feelings..

hehew..
sesuatu yg indah pasti dirasai bersama..
I can feel you~

p/s :

Sume org ade pendirian sendiri
Pendirian juga berubah²
wawawa...

Penat sudeyh~~

2009-06-04T12:36:00.000-07:00

penat lah..
penat sgt en..
korg tak pnat ke..??
sumpah weyh aku penat gyle..
aku rasa sgt sgt n sgt n sgt n sgt..

sedih , kecewa , stupid , loser , malu n syok sendiri...

' bile aku sorg je yg syok sendiri syg org tu tp org tu juz buat bodo je '

aku malu dowh...
malu sgt² sbb aku je yg syok sendiri lelebih..
yela..
sumtyms mmg la aku tatau malu.
tp aku ni human being jugak..
aku still ade perasan sume² tu..
sumtyms aku ckp aku da tade perasaan..
tipu la en..
sume org de perasaan..
tp tak nampak sgt je..
org bongok je pecaye la weyh..

mmg la kte takley paksa sum1 tu syg kte..
tp..
syg je weyh..
bukan nye nk cintan cintun ( tp yg aku nk cinta tu aku ckp la ).
pape ah korg..
aku bukan ape..
da kata as kwn , adik , abg , akak pacik , macik n wutsoeva lg la ..
mestila aku syg..
tp ble aku ckp kt korg aku syg korg..
korg bley plak cakap..

' ouh ek..? '
' nape syg..? '
' kau ni knape? '
' kte kwn je la.. ' ( cam vavi , ni akupaling tak ske )

huh...
yg last tu paling cam vavi..
weyh..
igt aku nk sgt ke kt korg..?
kire ok la tu aku syg korg..
aku tak kesah la kwn aku ni bitch ke , amek biji ke , minum ke ..
sumpah aku tak kesah..
sbb korg kwn aku n tade buat hal ngan aku..
tp bley tak if aku ckp aku syg korg..
korg appreciate sket..
tayah la sampai bg present ke pe..
atleast ckp la syg gak..
tade la aku rase aku ni syok sendiri..
malu dowh..
aku ni da la pemalu en..

grr..
geram g aku ( bak kate ijat )
geram g adalah geram yg sgt sakit hati n sgt geram n sume² ah..

weyh..
korg igt senang ke jaa nk syg org..?
jaa senang syg binatang je tau..
nk tau nape...?

" binatang tu syg kte if kte syg dye blk.. "

binatang pon de perasaan la..
takkan kte da bg dye mkn n da belai² sampai baik nye lentok..
dye nk gigit kte blk plak en..?
pepaham da la..
dulu mmg susah ah aku nk syg org weyh..
apatah lagi cinta..
siyes aku ckp..

skang baru padan muke aku..
ahuhu..
lantak ah korg..
aku syok sendiri ke , prasan lebih ke , termalu ke..
that's sexy.naughty.bitchy me.FULLSTOP~
deal wit it okie..

" aku tak pena silap syg korg
korg je yg silap tak syg aku"

korg tgk..!!
da tekeluar da ayat poyo aku..
hehew..
da ah..
lantak ah korg.
pasni if susah² txt la aku..
aku de je..
jgn risau ah..
aku susah aku tak cari korg..
aku de lg ramai permata lah..
penat aku..

p/s:

naik kete jalan sesak..
u guys sak..!!!

My baby

2009-06-03T23:54:00.000-07:00

" baby...baby jangan mati lagi..sian kt anak² baby..
baby tunggu abg balik eh.. "

xoxo~~

aku tatau..
tu la last words n hugs n kisses yg aku bg kt baby..
malam tu aku tak sedap hati je nk balik s.alam..
aku tatau..
then baby mati kamis pagi esoknye pule..
hurm..aku tau pon baby mati lepas aku blk umah blk..
5 hari lepas baby mati..
aku balik umah tym tu..
cam biase aku cari baby nk kiss n hug dye..
tp aku tak jumpe dye n juz nampak anak² dye je..
thenn aku tanye mama aku mane baby..
kau tatau ke..??
baby da mati esoknye lepas kau balik s.alam..
OMG..!!
im so so so sad~
i cried..
i looked at her kittens..
i cried..
im so so sory baby..
i dunno u'll leave me..
i dunno that was my last talk wit u..
i dunno that was my last kisses to u..
im not ready yet..
im not ready yet for ur leaving..
i still need u baby..
huuuu~~

in memory
3 yrs wit me

My baby

dunno wut to say..
i remember this picta..
u hugged me n slet on my chest..

p/s :
Teman datang dan pergi
kucen juga datang dan pergi
Love u baby~

Sape nak belakon..!!

2009-05-26T11:55:00.000-07:00

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Beperwatakan menarik..
Berbakat..
Ingin mencari pengalaman..
Ingin muncul di kaca tv..
Jgn sia-sia kan bakat anda..

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sape nk g blakon dtg ah kt line clear..
hee..
try g casting..
if dapat , dapat la..
tak dapat..jd cleaner pon bley je..
wawawa..
&&
Lineclear nih dkat bukit jelutong tau..
tatau nak pegi..??
bitau abg damak..
nnt abg bawakan..
hihihi...

Katalog menantu

2009-05-25T11:08:00.000-07:00

disebabkan status aku..membe² aku selalu je mintak gadis dkat aku..aku kekdg ske..kekdg tak..yela..dirog ckp nk buat gf..padahal aku ni pon tade gf lg..sokay la..so..aku pom tunjuk la folder ' gadis ' yg berkunci kt pc aku pada mereka ( if tym tu ade pc aku la )..hahha..selalunye bebdk kt puncak ah slalu mintak..tp kne tgk org juge..if takley bla n bebdk yg takley dipercayai..aku tak bagi..kalau stakat kwn nak memain i tak bagi ok..hahha..

lepas bukak folder gadis tu..diorg start la pilih..lepas pilih aku tak bagi pom..ahha...niat baik ke or tak..aku tak bagi jugak..haha..cari ah sendiri..tu sume kwn² n adik² n akak² aku yg disayangi..heee..saje je nk show off kt diorg kwn² girls aku..im proud of my girls okie..lepas da tunjuk² tu..aku suruh ah diorg cari sendiri..pastu if diorg ckp malas...da tade cara lain da..kne bitau jugak..take note ok u guys..

setiap parents mesti ade katalog menantu diorg..

hahaha..yess..it's true..lepas aku ckp tu..aku akan bukak satu folder nih..diorg mesti tanye n nak knal ngan this girl..tp aku tak bagi..dye girl yg sgt baik..aku takkan knalkan ngan membe² aku girl nih..nk tau sape..?ini la dye..jeng jeng jeng..

C_ty

Fyi..ni la Ct..sy suda lupe da pe name penuh dye..haih..sory Ct..tp sy tau awk anak macik saniah en Ct..sy da tanye da mak sy..hehew..Ct nih ex aku tym skola dolu²..Ct ni mmg baik..tp aku tak cukup baik untuk dye..she deserves sum1 better than me..Ct ni tau sumthin yg aku tatau tym aku couple ngan dye dulu iaitu..jeng jeng jeng..

" Parents awk slalu dtg umah sy.. "

yess...parents aku ngan parents dye kwn baik..kamcing gak ah mak bapak aku ngan dye..dye slalu cite kt aku parents aku slalu dtg umah dye n Si botak a.k.a babah aku..slalu kacau dye n paggil dye as menantu...woishh...terkejut aku tym Ct cite kt aku camtu..hehew..

lepas aku clash ngan CT..err lepas spm kot..aku still lg contact ngan ex² aku including Ct nih..dye skang da abis blaja da kt poli nun..awal tahun aritu..aku de kuar ngan Ct..g tgk wyg jap..hihi..sesaje je..lame da tak jumpe Ct nih..tym tu malam tau..sblom aku kuar..aku tanye mak aku sape name kwn dye duduk dkat fasa 3 tu..aku ckp aku nk kuar ngan anak dye...mak aku ckp la " saniah ke or kwn mama yg peguam tu..? "..aku malas nk layan then terus gerak..aku g pick up Ct..aku tanye la Ct..sape name mak dye..dye cakap name mak dye Saniah..huih..tu ok lg..then aku tanye lg "mak bg ke kuar mlm² " pastu dye bley ckp " if kuar ngan jaa..mak bagi..ngan org laen xleyh "..huh..aku tym tu juz be cool n buat tade pe je..hehe...then lepas tgk wyg n anta Ct pulang..dye txt aku..dye cite ah..

" aritu ayah awak dtg kenduri kawen akak sy..ayah awak ckp dkat mak sy..' tu anak kau yg Ct tu ble lg..?bley la aku bwk jaa dtg meminang.. "

tym tu aku tersedak² gyle..hahaha..gyle ah botak nih..tade keje..eventho gurau jep..tp org tua nye gurau² bahaye weyh..hihi..then..lepas da selidik²..baru la aku tau..Ct tu adalah antara gadis² yg terdapat di dalam katalog menantu parents aku..hee..n aku juga tergolong dalam katalog menantu parents dye..haih..wutsoeva la..aku clash ngan Ct sbb tym skola en..mane la aku reti nak becinte nih..zaman² monyet je tu..heh..n sampai skarang..aku takley nak ade love kt Ct..hehew...pape je la..

Ct..sy igt lg bufday awak..18.11 en..sy tak lupe la awak..

p/s : mati aku if Ct tau bout my blog nih.. -_-"

How jambus i are

2009-05-24T17:49:00.000-07:00

Haritu aku txt dgn mok..

lame da tak jd gay txt ngan dye..
ahahha..
byk weyh aku txt ngan dye..
bff aku tuh..
dulu mok gmok tp skang da kurus da..
dulu bley la panggil mok..
skang tak ley da..
kne panggil mok jambu..
aku da lame da tak lepak ngan mok..
sbb mok pon study skang nih..
cam biase ah..
sembang² pasal bisnes dan paling penting pasal gadis..
hehehe..
mok ckp..

Mok : takkan la kau single lg kot..
Jaa : haah tak caye pule..bukan ade orang minat kat aku en..
Mok : haa..kau kan ramai skandal..pe cer sume..?

Jaa : Weyh..skang aku da tak panggil skandal da..tak baik dowh..aku anggap sume kwn baik aku..hee..skang aku cari cinta sejati je..
Mok : haha..biar betul..?waa..jaa jambu da kembali..ni la jaa yg aku kenal..jaa baru kan kaki ****..C_ty camne..?

sape C_ty tu..?
biarla rahsia..hehehe
nnt sy post blog about C_ty - Katalog menantu..
wawawa..
ape motif aku cite mende nih..?
sukati aku la en..
blog aku..
hee..
i juz wanna show to u guys..
how do Jaa Jambu look..
agaggaga..

1. Bajet skema

Hahaha..zaman nih pepoyo je bwk buku kimia , bio n sume² buku G9..
heee...Sains Stream la katekan..
lepastu lepak tym rehat g bli mkn sambil hold buku tu pastu g usha² gadis..
buku tu bukan bace pon..ahuhu...pastu pg mencapap ngan buku² tu kulu kilir..
tym ni exam spm kimia..

2. Poyo² Macho

Yang ni lepas spm da..tym nih keje kt Clubhouse sri damn..
keje as bdk jage gym..hahah...pastu bajet mcm gym instuctor..
pegi sane nek moto ex5 je..tp pakai mcm nek superbike..hahah
nak buat cane en..baju tu byk selamatkan bodyku dari calar xcident..
tym ni da tutup gym nk pulang da..

3. Budak Jambu

Ni tym keje..haha..muke abes jambu je..
yela..ramai plak gadis² work out kt cni en..so..
penampilan kene jage..keje kene rajin..
wawawa...kekadang tak jage pon counter tu..
pegi work out skali ngan gadis² tu..
haha..dgr radio pon hits.fm..era ke hot.fm ke tak men ah..
hehew...

4. Im virgin

Hahha..baju ni aku suke pakai..haih..mane ta pegi baju nih..
rindu dowh..statement dye sume org tak caye..
yess..im virgin..tu sbb la aku pakai..
haha..igt muke cam aku ni not virgin ke..?wawawa..
Pic ni pna letak kt ms kot dulu..tgk pic pon da tau da..
pic muke bajet ms je...hehew..

p/s :

memancing dengan ayah kurasa gembira
pulang sebelum hujan
mak kata kami ada kawan
namanya scod emulsion

Go fishing wit my dad i feel so lucky
go back home before the rain
mama said we have a fren
and its name is scod emulsion

rindu zaman jambu..selalu nyanyi lagu nih..
ahahha...

rindu

2009-05-22T15:56:00.000-07:00

Aku belek² pic² yg aku edit dulu sambil melayan perasaan ..

aku teringat pada mereka..
Diorg sumber inspirasi aku tym snap pic.
n diorg juge model² aku tym dolu²..
haha.
mish u both la babes..

Jackie - tym ni dye bdk emo lg..
haha..rambut tak bleach lg..
aku ske snap pic dye..
sbb dye natural beauty tp tak yakin ngan diri dye..
skang nih da jd pelakon da..
ngan syampu pom jadi gak dye ni..
fotogenik~
ouh..pic ni bkn aku snap..
juz ske je pic nih..
wawawa...

Myra - tym ni kt Klcc..
myra pom same gak..
fotogenik..
snang je nk snap pic ngan diorg nih..
ahaha..
pic ni aku edit..
buat mcm poster untuk seluar jeans..
hahaa..

yg ni xde motif..
haih..
tym ni tgh rindu kt diorg..
buat la muke diorg kt kolam nun..
rindu korg so much babes..
and tema kitorg..
Love.Friendship.Tragedy

Malam Laju

2009-05-22T15:14:00.000-07:00

hehehe

baru je pulang dari memantapkan vocal kt curve..
wee~~
sangat seronok..
selalu pegi 3 org je..
tp skang da 4 org..
si Puya da cuti en so bley la pasni karo' duet ngan dye ..
tade la aku tade partner lagi..

best gyle~
td pkey bwk kete laju²..
race dgn kete design macha..
cheh.
seb baek turbo..
hahaha...
lame da tak reace en..

ouh².
puya did helped me siapkn my poem..
skang nih en rajin menulis²..
nk tgk..??
ni version baru..
da touched up sket..
quite panjang..
tp nnt ble da dimelodikan de la tu part² yg kne potong.
haih..
tapela...ni bkn lagu rap..
wawawa..

Beneath Your Enchanted Eyes

I saw you stood under a tree
Holding an umbrella , wearing a purple kebaya
And waiting for your Prince

* Malam ittu sungguh seperti kamu ;
Bulan indah yang sedang menanti
si Bintang untuk bersinar bersamanya dalam sepi malam
Mengapa kamu bersedih..?
Ini hanya mimpi~

I came closer to you then
You stared at me and let me feels you
A joy of living i saw heaven in your eyes
Ouh , I wish i were your Prince

Dear Princess :
Beneath your enchanted eyes
I saw your misery and elusive heart
Im sorry I've made you cried and
I had Failed as your Prince.

hihi..
nnt nk ft. lagu ni ngan lagu Bitter Farewell..
gyla lah...
poyo je..
wawawa.

Bitter Farewell

2009-05-17T13:35:00.000-07:00

Sejak menetap bersama teman² di s.alam , aku rajin membaca ;
hobi aku masa sissy yang telah lama aku lupakan..
aku hanya mampu memberi keikhlasan dan kejujuran saja pada mereka..
saat indah , sukar , gembira dan duka kami kongsi bersama..
sejak duduk rumah tu pun , aku rajin menulis..
minda dikerah dan ditajamkan untuk persediaan masa hadapan..
pengorbanan pada masa ini amat diperlukan..

" Bila tiba waktunya , kita akan buktikan siapa kita "

ayat yang sering diungkaps kerna hati tidak mampu menahan hasad² kamu..
masa memaksa kami untuk selalu merencana..
cakap banyak pun sia²..
nantikan waktunya..

- Musick of you , me , friends n them -

* come back to me

give me all your misery
this bitter farewell
will lead me to fatal tragedy

Ouh you , yes you
i saw you under a tree ,
holding an umbrella ,
wearing purple kebaya ,
that night was soooo gloomy..

sangat suram seperti kamu ,
mengapa kamu bersedih ?
kala malam mahu hujan ,
tetapi bintang masih berkelipan ,
walau tanpa ditemani bulan..

i went closer to you ,
you stared at me ,
i looked at you ,
but , beneath your eyes..

**the time that i've waitin for hanya mimpi
u r so beautiful that night~~

Moss Agate

2009-05-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

I love intelligent conversation, so the way to my heart is through the head.I am best involved with a steadier, stronger personality who will tolerate and enjoy my butterfly socializing, yet still be there for you when the cards have all blown down. I am willing to experiment with all manner of relationship styles; and as long as my partner is articulate, tolerant, exciting, adventurous and willing to discuss their exploits in detail, they will be ecstatic.Because i am not above straying, i rather divorce prone. However, typically i think the joys of an occasional adventure more than make up for the risks involved. i am exciting companions who crave excitement and variety. i assume i will be able to easily smooth over troubled waters with my silver tongue--i am tolerant of the peccadilloes to my partners, so long as they are not stolid or boring.

I am curious and intellectual by nature.I am forever exploring people and places in my quest to attain knowledge. Bright, witty and outgoing, my charm guarantees i will be the center of attention in any crowd. Matching my intellect is a well-developed imagination

She

She really need to be needed. She suffer from fear of rejection and low self-esteem.She is tender and caring, but frequently become the victims of domineering and uncaring partners. She submerge herselves in the experiences of her mates. If her partner is strong and caring, she will soar to new heights. Conversely, if she find herselves in an unfulfilling relationship, she will prolong the agony--feeling that she must deserve the misery?-and assume the role of martyr. She do best when involved with a solid personality who will enjoy her romantic fantasies. There is no more loyal and caring lover than her, but her need for emotional and sensual reassurance sometimes leads to flirtations. She is the most loving and giving of the signs, her ability to select an inappropriate partner is legendary. In the right relationship, her sexuality will blossom and become something of an art form, especially as she get a little older, more experienced and more confident.

She is spiritual beings ruled by her feelings. Her journey through life will involve much soul searching and retreat into that hazy world which exists between the real and the unreal. While she is very happy traveling the paths of her inner world,her compassion and need to help others will ensure her return to the real world regularly.

that's why i like the way u are..

p/s : sumthing i read

tagged

2009-05-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

wah~
kne tagged dgn bdk pmr..
lame da tak kne tag..
hee..

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own post, erase my answers, enter yours and tag people you want. Describe the person who tagged you and put him/her picture. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real; nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Name dye Amelia..bdk PMR..haha..dye stay kt perak nun..dkat ipoh..dye sgt minat dgn anime n japanese things..hee.ye la kot..sy slalu bace blog dye..n sgt lawak...lelbih lg tym dye cite pasal hari sukan n about boys..ahaha..tu je la i knal bout her..hope dpt knal lg..hee..&& i baru tau dye de bela kucen..ngee~

1. What is your name : Mohammad Azhar

2. A four letter word : Malu

3. A boy's name : Martopo

4. A girl's name : Maimunah

5. An occupation : Mayor

6. A color : Maroon

7. Something you'll wear : Men's wear

8. Something found in the bathroom : Mayonis

9. A food: Mee gurau²

10. A reason for being late : Mengambala

11. Something you'd shout : Lembu..!!

12. A movie title : Mistik ( wtf )

13. Something you drink : Medicine

14. A musical group : Manis

15. An animal : Monyet

16. A street name : majistreet

17. A type of car : Mustang

18. Title of a song : Mimpi sempurna

Risalah Cinta - faly awook -

2009-04-30T00:36:00.000-07:00

ni risalah cinta membe @ abg syg aku kt puncak nun..
Faly awook..
dye tak arwah lg..
saje je kt ms tu..
hehew..
nk buat kontroversi sket..
dye bg nasihat kt adek² dye kt puncak nun..
bace la..

Kita di lhirkan sbagai mnusia yg tidak smpurna untuk lari dari melakukan ksalahan….

Kita ada klmahan yg sememangnya sring kali menggagalkan diri…
Tapi kita tk perlu lemah krana klemahan itu dicipta Allah swt bgi mengajar mnusia erti usaha dan kesedaran…

Kalau sume mnusia dilahirkan smpurna…pasti mereka bongkak dan lupa tnggungjawab di dnia ini…

Klemahan aku adlah dlam brcinta…ntah la..kdang2 aku rsa mcm tk ptut jer brcinta…

Yela…wtpe kita nk seksa ank orang…buat ank orng nangis n skit hati…mmg tk patut…

Hati pmpuan nie lmbut, tapi aku nie slalu sngat buat hati lmbut nie nangis…bodo aku nie…tk hargai kjujuran yg di brikan…

So…pda sahabatku yg bercinta…ingat lah….

Kawal nafsu marah korang…jgan terlalu layan prasaan mrah.

Bila kita marah, kita ckap main lpas jer…kdang2 kata yg di luah tue, mengguris hati org yg dicinta…bila marah,dialah yg pling dibenci, pling truk la,apa la…tpi bila marah dah hilang, n hati tnang, bru nak sedar yg dialah terbaik tuk kita n pling kita cinta…

Jgan suka cri gado…or cri psal la..benda kecik slalu jdi bsar.

Bila bercinta, hati bertukar jdi sngat snsitif…so, ingat…jga hati kkasih…hati yg snsitif adlah tuk insan yg istimewa dlam hidup seseorang…

Jgan ragui kpercayaan….bila dia da setia n jujur, jgan syak wasangka lgi..nnt dia rimas…mcm aku r, syak bkan2 pda awek yg dah setia…n skrg,pdan muka aku…awek aku da wat tk kisah kt aku…

Jgan cuba rapat ngan laki or pmpuan len bila da couple…sngat bahaya,,,itulah punca kpada kcurangan. Klau brkawan, kira ok la…tpi jgan jdikan diorng sbagai tmpat luah msalah,prob cinta n ksdihan…nnt bila diorang bgi nsihat,kita rasa mcm dia fhami kita, pastu kita pun jtuh cinta ngan dia plak..xelok kan mcm tue…pdahal mmg seseorang tue akn pndai mnasihati org lain klau itu bkan masalah dia..so, jgan r cuba tuk rapat ngan orang lain..berkawan biasa sudah memadai…hrgailah kekasih anda…dia yg fhami susah snang anda…org lain hnya fhami buat sketika…

Sabar…sabar n sabar…korang kena smangat tuk pertahankan cinta…jgan give up k…jgan gado cket, korang da rsa x shaluan.

Itu sume prasaan bodoh bila tgah gado n mrah…kalau da putus, jgan korang membenci n xnk berusaha tuk kmbalikan hubungan…kalau hati dah benar cinta,x salah kalau korang brusaha kmbalikan hbungan yg telah putus…kalau itu bukan jodoh kita tapi kita berusaha tuk dapatkan nya, Allah akn mempertemukan jua…

Berjuanglah tuk cinta anda semua…Ingatlah…semua percintaan ada halangan…hnya ketabahan penentu kebahagiaan…hargai setiap kenangan yg ada…pertahankan cinta dalam hati anda…

Ak bukan nk bajet mcm bgus gler dlam brcinta cuma ak nyatakan pngalaman ak jer..ak xnk korang jdi cam ak..kang xpasal2 korang x suka brcinta..pdahal sbnarnya cinta itu indah, cuma kita yg sering mencacatkan ny...

Dan aku pun bgitu…sntiasa cintakan dia..n mngharapkan maaf nya…Tpi ak x memaksa...1437522469..!!!

*fight for ur right

Muntah

2009-04-29T22:46:00.000-07:00

Sape baru muntah semlm..???

Saye~~

Hahahahha...hagemaru muntah..!!

Huuu..
da lame da tak muntah..
almost 3 yrs..
since form 5 kot ta muntah..
sbb tak suke n takut muntah..
so..
smlm da pecah da rekod..
adoi..
saket perot sgt~~
da la tym tu tgh tgk Man U vs Arsenal..
huuu..
seb baek Man U mng..
ahahhahaha
arsenal tu ayam..

go Man u go Man u go Man u

berbaloi gak muntah smlm..
eventho kne bahan.
g mapos ah korg..
aku saket perot ah..

Aku rindu

2009-04-28T12:38:00.000-07:00

3 a.m.

Azhar : *** kau ade bijik x..?
*** : kau ni knape..?
Azhar : kau de x..?
*** : untuk kau xde..kitorg tanak bagi kau..

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aku pna terbace keratan akhbar..
remaja² skarang suke mengambil bende² tersebut untuk menghadapi stress dan gangguan perasaan..
hurm..
aku pna gak tanye membe² aku..
diorg ckp bende² tu buat diorg feel high n happy n fun..
aku pun nak happy n fun..

conversation tu tym aku tgh depressed..
peluang ade dpan mata..
tp aku xley buat pape sbb si dia..
so.
aku mintak la kt membe aku.
dye tanak bagi..
diorg sume tanak bagi..
aku pun tarik ah muke..
pastu diorg buat bodo je.
cis.
x menjadi plak trick aku..
then sume da tdo..
tggl aku sorg je yg xley tdo..
tatau nk buat pe..
aku amek kerusi bulat dan pegi ke peti ais..
aku bukak peti ais dan duduk dpan peti ais tu..
aku duduk n hisap rokok..
banyak juge...
then aku nampak 1 can susu pekat..
aku pg amek mangkuk n tuang susu pekat tu dalam mangkuk sampai susu pekat tu tggl suku je..
pastu..
dpan peti ais tu aku minum susu pekat dlm mangkuk tu sampai habis..

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Semalam pukul 3 pagi aku g umah kawan sampai mati aku - Jinggo -
lame da aku tak jumpe dye..
rumah dekat je..
aku jumpe jinggo..
aku peluk dye..
rase lega~
aku tanye dye nape da tak lepak kedai aku tman bapak aku.
dye ckp sbb aku n mok tade..

* im so sory jinggo..
aku x balik jenguk kau kt cni..
aku saje sebokkan diri kt puncak nun..
aku pon ade probs juge..
sory tinggalkan kau..

jinggo da lain..
dye ckp dye da tade perasaan kt girls..
tp dye bukan gay..
dye ckp dye tak percaye girls da..

Ja'a : yela..kau x sunyi ke..?
Jinggo : hati je sunyi..membe² kan ade..
Ja'a : mmg la..tp hati tetap sunyi dan lonely..
Jinggo : buat pe kau nk g lonely dok sorg²..g la lepak ngan membe²..kedoi²..

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xoxo

Should i or should u..?

2009-04-27T09:50:00.000-07:00

Should i change my feelings..?

Knape harus berubah..?
tp sume orang berubah...
Knape harus tiada perasaan..?
tp sume orang berperasaan..
Orang senang berubah..
begitu juga perasaan..

Should i be happy..?

Kalau la dapat undurkan masa lalu kan best..
kamu mau..?
Saya tidak mau..
kerna past is past..
Bila kita dapat ulang masa lalu..
kita takkan dapat belajar dari silap yang dulu..
pepaham la sendiri..
Blaja dari kesilapan..

Should i be sad..?

" hey..knape harus sedih..kau gembiralah "

Should i go on..?

feel happy..
feel sad..
feel loved..
feel free..
feel wutsoeva i want..

or should u..?

Dare me..
i can feel u..
i dunnno how..
but i can feel u..
dont be sad ok :) ..

" hey kamu , jangan la sedih
hanya kamu dan masa penghalangnya ,
better u cry out loud again ,
bila tiba waktunya , kita akan bersedia ,
menghadapi perubahan itu ,
pemikiran dapat mengubahnya , hanya kamu..
Pandanglah langit itu , Dia sentiasa menemani kita.."

keseronokan la...

2009-04-24T17:01:00.000-07:00

hye guys..
hee..
lame suda ta updated blog..
well lepas da study week nih free gyle...
sbb sy tiada paper..
hehew..sgt syok..
ok..i wanna show to u all the reasons why im quite bz sem nih..
xde la bz mane pom..
sesaje je buat bz sgt..
hihi...

No.1 - Menggedik

hehew...i rase ni la pic i yg paling gedik skali pna dicapture..
rase na lempang je bdk laki nih...
haha..i ta caye i snap pic camni...ahahahha

No.2 - Boom Operator

Oooouhhh...tym ni best juge..bajet bagus je en...
hee..snang je nk capture sound nih..membe i sampai ley capture bau skali..
ahahhaa....ouh²..ni short film EYE..byk main P.O.V je cite nih..unik..

No.3 - Menambah kawan baru

Hee..Ni sume production crews for short film EYE n Katil Misteri..
1st tym dowh buat 2 short film dalam mase 3 hari..dasat ta..??
mereke ni sume bdk² degree..diorg gyle n sporting..juz me kamil n boyot je bdk sem 4..
kitorg 3 org nih buat d.p tuk 2 cite tu...hehew...tym snap pic sempat kacau kamil lagi..tu yg senyum jahat je tu..hahaha...

No.4 - Be a Cameraman

Yang ni tym short film Kunfayakun direct by aina from manis band..
syok weyh..tp camera tu cam babi..name cam tu pon PD1 babi..ahaha..
tym ni 1st day shooting..abis je scene nih tros rush balik kolej sbb ade class..pnat weyh..
dengan badan bau rimau trus g class...hehew..yg jage lighting tu amer..n kt blakang tu aina n kak jaja yg masam..hahaha..

No.5 - Panjat memanjat

Ngeri weyh panjat tangga tu..da la tinggi..kne pgg cam tu btul²..if jatuh ke cam tu..abis la i keje ngan fakulti seumur hidup..huhu..
yang tgh sandar kt tangga tu kamil..assist camera..hihi..
kitorg men tuka²..if pnat dye plak jd cameraman n i jd assist..
skali lg kitorg dpt jadi d.p tuk short film..

No.6 - Main ujan

Wee~tym nih mmg syok gyle..hahhaa ni tym short film Kunfayakun..ta dpt dilupakan ape yg terjadi tym ujan lebat nih..tym shooting bley plak ujan lebat en..pack brg² sume n then ktorg sume tros mandi ujan..huhu..eventho sejuk banget~ta kesa pom..enjoy je..ahaha...igt lagi jaja buat² pengsan dalam ujan tu..hahaha...lawak gyle..sume menggelabah..then isap rokok bawah payung ramai² dengan menggigilnye ta igt..sampai patah rokok tu..ahaha..hish..tunggu pak cik bas la nih lambat sgt..curi makan crew lain la..makan dalam ujan la..hahaha..sedih gyle weyh...da la tepi hutan tu jalan raye yg byk kete..ape la macik² dalam kete tu igt kitorg ni men ujan reramai..hehew..

No.7 - Flirt ngan talent

Hehew..flirt ngan talent eh..bukan dengan kak jaja..kak jaja ta mao eh..hahaha...flirting itu mesti diharuskan..hihi..if crew lagi cun dari talent..flirt ngan crew pon tape..huhu..ni namenye cinta lokasi..ahaha...wut..?!im single ok..sukati ah..ahaha...ouh..&& i flirt ngan talent girl eh..bkn dengan talent laki..yg blah kiri skali tu Lee..bdk macho kt puncak..pastu baju merah tu plak intan sem 2 a.k.a junior ku di puncak..1st tym nampak dye..junior sendiri pon i ta knal..haha..dye ni tade keje..pakai baju tido dalam hutan...ahaha..baju itam tu plak kak jaja..sape ta knal en..hee..

hihihi..
thats it..
sbnarnye byk lg ouh..
Pic² MCP ta masuk lg..
tanak la cite pasal mcp..nnt kang kontroversi lg mcm aritu..
ahuhuhu...
If bley..nak je upload pic yg byk² tu..
tp malas la..nnt org ckp kecoh² n ckp bajet bagus plak...
wawawa..
sokay la..
jugde me by my look ok dear..
g mampos..
ouh eh..
kepada sume² yg terlibat ngan i tym shooting sume short films ni secara langsung or tidak langsung..
so sory k if de buat salah ke...termarah ke..terpatah kan hati ke..tetibe i jd gyle ke..
hehew..im juz a normal person k..ta perfect mane pom..
ouh...
kepada crew Kunfayakun..sory aritu terpatahkan kerusi taman macik Lyn tu..
ta sengaje..heee...

p/s : Best keje ngan korg..
sume² yg kt situ abis kt situ je eh..
no more heart feelings..

Deeper Conversation

2009-04-24T15:48:00.000-07:00

Act 1

Diamond : U mesti sorg yg sunyi en..
Ja'a : Mengape hah..?
Diamond : Yela..org yg sunyi je slalu tgk bulan n bintang..

* Bulan itu cantik , bintang itu menawan , langit itu tinggi..i ske u seperti luasnya langit tinggi yg sukar digapai ( motif..?? )

Act 2

His gf : Dear..u ni pelik ah..
Heartless : Nape..?
His gf : Yela...u ni x de perasaan ah..haha..

* Haah..baru tau ke..?aku ni kan emas , berlian , sume² bende yg xde perasaan..tp berharga..!!

Act 3

Diploma : Akak g jumpe sape..?
Degree : Ja'a..
Diploma : Ja'a mane..? ( pelik )
Degree : Ja'a mane lagi..?? ( lagi pelik )
Diploma : Ja'a..?! ahahahhahaha...

* Ha'ah..ja'a mane lagi..Ja'a yang gyle , gay , gigolo , kaki romen , psycho , sombong n sume dalam kamus yg maksud nye sakit ati gak la kekadang..

Act 4

Kura² : Org ckp u sombong tu biase la..
Perasan : u ckp..?
Kura² : I tgk u bajet bagus je..poyo..

* Ye syg..i bajet bagus sbb i mmg bagus..i poyo sbb i mmg poyo..deal with it okie..

Act 5

Family : Aku rase nk lempang je kau..
Daisy : nape..?
Family : Jangan bagi aku jumpe dye..( alert )

* Siyes weyh..jgn aku jumpe bdk kepulauan tu..aku dgr lg skali..adoi kau nih..set kat kpale kau..aku x same ngan kau..aku laki..kau girl ok..?

Babi bz

2009-04-18T11:30:00.000-07:00

Cerita yg lalu itu..
cerita kau dan aku..

* Keep myself bz.
* New life..
* New experience
* Old me

Kepada sume² yg terase hati..
maafkan saya..
sy tidak selalu marah..
cume..
sy termarah haritu..
kerna sy letih + dmam + batok and sedih..

* I'll try to be the best..
* And beat the rest...
* Next Target...

* Sem depan i wanna be a dirextor..
* wahahhahahaah.. xcited gyle..

Kehilangan

2009-03-27T13:09:00.000-07:00

Dia suda tiada lagi..
sedih terasa di hati..
semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..
kehilangannya amat dirasai..
dia amat rapat dengan kami..
perginya rakan kami yg kasihi..
tidak mam[u berkata² lagi..

AL-FATIHAH

Entah

2009-02-18T12:54:00.000-08:00

Eventho u sent to me the msg , i still dont believe it n i really dont believe it.
yes..
they always remind me..
once u said it , u really meant it..

but..

i dont listen to them..
bcoz i know..
u r not really meant it..

it's true..
hard for me to move on..
im sorry..
that .437 is not belongs to me.
it's for u dear..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JXqT8C4mV4 = TRUE LOVE !

how to be...

2009-01-29T07:48:00.000-08:00

ok..
1st of all..
duduk dekat hujung bar dkat mane² hotel..
make sure u r alone..

then..
order a glass of coke...

now
u r a lonely guy with a coke sit at the end of bar..
after that..
a woman will come to u n will whisper to u the key words..

easy..
that is the way how to be a gigolo.

the key words..
no need to tell u guys..
they will kill me..

Ade ape dengan Taste

2009-01-25T14:54:00.000-08:00

kikon : aku still syg dye..aku x reti nak ayat girl da.hahaa..aku cerewet do

Smarties : ala ade jdoh she'll back blk kt ko..ko cye la klo owg 2 ikhlas syg kte mst one day t dye bck kt kte blk.. 2 r crewet sgt ko niey..hehehe..sbnr ko ske pmpn cm ner ek?? aku pn x paam taste ko..huhu..

kikon : hihi aku kn klu bley aku nk cari girl yg manje dari aku..i mean yg lebih manje dari aku aku kn manje sket haha

tu la dye chit chot aku ngan smarties bukan nama sebenar..bukan dye je yg x paham ngan taste aku..malah ramai lg yg x paham dengan taste aku..ahuhu...diorg ckp taste aku sume yg pelik²..hihi..yeke..?entahlah...taste..ade ape ngan taste..?entahlah..bile org tanye girl camne taste aku..aku just jawab..

" ade ape ngan taste..?if da jodoh , jodoh la en..taste tu bukan kekal pom n if dapat girl yg bukan taste kte..kte still bley ubah taste tu..paham..?heh..janji taste aku girl n not oppposite gender ( of coz la coz diorg slalu ckp aku gay ).. "

hee..poyo je en..yela kot..ade ape ngan taste..?hurm..klu bley kte mesti la nak taste yg sama kpale ngan kte en..huu..if korg nak tau..girl yg taste aku ialah girl yg manja...hihi..biar la org cakap gedik ke ape ke..lantak ah..janji aku ske..tu sbb la aku ramai kawan girls yg manja²..reason aku ske girl yg manja sebab..actually aku ni pom sorg yg manja gak..so..aku nak cari la girl yg lebih manja dari aku..hihi..then aku ske girl yg ganas² n boyish sket..ala² tomboy la..aku tak reti sangat nak belai girls sbb aku ni ganas sket..hihi..so..aku bley la maen wrestling ngan dye..best ade gf camnih..aku pom ramai kawan girls yg ganas² nih..hihi..best gado² ngan diorg..pastu yg most important thing..aku teringin sangat gf yg bley buat kawan..lepak² cam kwn² n enjoy wit me..syok..if dapat combo set nih memang aku nak knal nye n xkan lepaskan mcm si bff aku tuh..hihi..eventho dye boyish n ganas..dye tetap manja ngan aku..plus dye pom omelicious..hihi..ouh..aku tak pecaya langsung dkt statement nih..

" ko caye la klo org 2 ikhlas syg kte mst one day t dye bck kt kte blk "

masihkah ada cinta..?

bestfriends

2009-01-25T13:27:00.000-08:00

I don't have to worry anymore, cause you will be by my side when I cry
You always smile at me
I am blessed because you always shine before me
Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time

These plenty happiness that I felt at this moment
All the friends that I have here, you the best present
I am blessed because you always be by our side
Surely things that I have accomplished here, those things too give me strength

Thank you thank you Best Friend

Always always always my Best Friend

Love.Friendship.Tragedy

Words from my beloved Ackie ( kiwi )

2009-01-21T13:23:00.000-08:00

kiwi : kau ni knape hah..?aku da besar la..sukati aku la..
oren : ok fine..kau da besar en..lepas ni aku da x payah amek tau pasal kau..lantak kau lah

From : Jackie

True friends!!!

we sign our picca as bff (best friend forever)
you has million ways to make me laugh
you lookin' out for me and you got my back
so good to have you around,my friend..

you know the secrets i could never tell
and when i'm quiet you break through my shell!!
don't feel the need to do or never yell,
coz you keep,my feet on the ground

you're true friend till the end!!
you pull me aside when something aint right
'till it's alright again

you don't ever angry when i change the plans
some how you're never outta second chances
won't say i told when i'm wrong again
i'm so lucky that i found a true friend..

true friends will go to the ends of the earth
'till they find the things you need!
friends hang on through the ups and the downs
coz they've got someone to believe in!!!

tq caa to be my true friend..

don't ouching2 haa!!!

smile!!! ;)

Thanx ackie for ur words
no need for me to worry bout u anymore
u has grown up maturely
u can take care of urself now
im proud of u and u are my bestfriend also
no worries , as long as i still alive
i'll be beside u till the end of my life
XOXO~

Love.Friendship.Tragedy

i'll mish Her

2009-01-20T09:27:00.000-08:00

I hope she'll be fine
i'll mish her
she always be at my side after ackie n myra leave me here
alone
she is a nice girl friend , caring sister , mature lady n also a good lover
but now
she also leave me like ackie n myra
they leave me
to survive for their life
seeking for the meaning of love
and they leave
to fight the fight that they dont know when it will end
i love them all
because
they love , cry and laugh with all their heart
and they also know
live doesn't last forever

Aku tatau ape yang telah aku lakukan dan sumpahan ape yang kne kat aku sampai sume ladies yang rapat dan yang aku bley anggap kawan sampai mati akan tinggalkan aku kat puncak nih..im serious..dah empat sem aku dekat puncak nih and setiap sem mesti je ade sorg girl yang aku teralu rapat akan hilang dan pegi dari aku yang bersusah payah untuk survive kat puncak nih..diorg lah tempat aku lepaskan sume perasaan aku and tiada rahsia antara kitorg..diorg tau kisah aku dan aku juge tau kisah diorg..mengape hah..?entahlah..may be ianya takdir yang tak boleh diubah..aku memang seorang yang susah menerima kenyataan dan kehilangan..tapi itulah kenyataan..mereka hilang jua...sakit..beban sakit yang aku tanggung memang berat..hati aku..kalau lah boleh di operate secara metaphore..memang tiada langsung kesan parut kerna luka yang baru nak sembuh terluka balik..hati aku sentiasa luka..

luka..

biarlah..aku rase aku dah lali dengan luka dalaman nih..so aku try cari luka luaran..aku kerap mencederakan diri supaya aku lali dengan luka luaran nih..haih..ade ape dengan luka..aku keliru..kekadang aku suka luka nih dan kekadang aku benci luka nih...suka atau benci..lali atau tak..luka tetap luka dan luka tetap sakit..

sakit..

aku tanak da rapat² ketat² dengan any girls kat puncak nih..aku tanak da luka² nih..aku takut if aku rapat sangat dengan any girls here..next sem..they'll gone and it's just me still standing at puncak alone without any girls beside me..yeah..a man need a girls to stand..same goes to girls..they need a man to stand too..after this..any girl that close to me..she's just my friend..not more than that..

i'll always love u girls
and i'll protect u girls
whatever and whenever it takes

Love.Friendship.Tragedy

harapan

2009-01-17T03:21:00.001-08:00

mlm tadi pkey amek aku kt puncak..nak g tgk wayang..
aku ok je la..sbb mak aku pom mmg nak blk uma..so pkey bley anta skaii..
tempat biase..
of coz la the curve nun..
da sampai..pastu wyg cite x best plak..terlambat suda..
then cancel tgk wayang g karo..
karaoke jamban je..
siot ah..da la byk lagu xde..
mlm tu aku nk nyanyi xsedap plak..
sebab suare lari mkn popcorn.adoi..
da x best da..
pastu aku tatau da nak nyanyi lagu pe..
aku pilih la lagu " harapan by fazli zainal "
tah camane,,
aku bley plak bwk lagu tu..
flow dye pom ok je..
tym aku nyanyi tu..
pkey pluk aku n suruh aku cool..
chillex..
tayah igt sgt bende lalu..

Tidak kesampaian cinta kita
Ku bawa harapan ku pendam rahsia
Ku di kejauhan mendoakan

Agar kau bahagia tiada lagi duka

touching gyle aku tym part chorus tu..
ahuhuh..
pastu bley plak ijat ajak aku g audition AF..
ahahhaa..
x dapat la..
ahad ni aku de game doi...

Reunion

2009-01-17T02:39:00.000-08:00

oren : Sejak bile kau buat bende nih?
kiwi : kau ni knape hah..?aku da besar la..sukati aku la..
oren : ok fine..kau da besar en..lepas ni aku da x payah amek tau pasal kau..lantak kau lah
kiwi : ( senyap )

Kamis aritu aku ngan membe² aku pegi reunion.lame da x lepak n goyang bersama..sume bz ngan study memasing..kitorg nk lepas rindu n happy² that night..tym tu Dj Glenn spin plak en.tu pon tym kitorg nk balik baru tau..sume kwn² segoyang aku ade..kitorg dlm 12 org camtu..pkey my bestie pom ade gak malam tu..happy la..aku gaduh ngan bff aku..dye buat sesuatu yg x patut dibuat dan sesuatu yg membuat kan aku marah kt dye..pastu dye ching plak ngan aku..aku pon aching la blk ngan dye..memasing ego..aku da try pujuk dye..tp dye tamau..so..aku tgk jela membe² aku dance..aku dok sorg² n xde mood da..tgh aku duduk..

pkey : knape ni bro..
oren : xde pe ah..kau enjoy la.
pkey : ala..aku tau la kau nih..knape..?pasal kiwi ke..?
oren : xde la..aku juz teringat kt si dia..
pkey : c'mon la bro..
oren : sokay..aku ok la..aku teringat kt nyet je..dance la..

then aku tgk la membe² aku happening...aku tgk kiwi tu..dye diam je..kaku kt sofa tu..pastu aku g kt marina n tgk dye..happy marina malam tu..hee..then tetiba aku terase macam de org peluk aku dari blakang..kiwi peluk aku dengan erat..aku nk nangis da..yes..she's now a big girl..aku x patut da take care of her..n she has bf..dye da besa..

* what r we suppose to do
after all that we've been through
when that everything felt so right is wrong
now that the love is gone

there is nothing left to prove
no use to deny this simple truth
cant find the reason to keep holding on
now that the love is gone
love is gone

kiwi ajak aku dance..1st tym aku merase shuffle berpasangan..sgt syok..kiwi pom pandai shuffle..aku shuffle ala² je..tym tu love is gone background music..tu mmg lagu aku..aku shuffle..aku teckto..aku jerit love is gone macam org yg xde harapan da n dance n juz hoping i can meet her..aku seronok tgk membe² aku happy..malam tu sume single..yg mane de couple x dibenarkan bawa sekali..hehe..that's the rule..sume pnat dance..kitorg peluk ramai²

" frens forevva..!!! "

sory guys..no pictures r allowed..

private n confidential sape yg terlibat..
hihi..

love u guys
frens foreva
Love.Friendship.Tragedy
xaxau gyle syiaaall..!!

Takut

2009-01-13T23:33:00.001-08:00

" kau ni..call je la..

kau takut pe..?kau takut..?

kau juz ego je..buang ego kau tu..

kau kn da dpt blk num dye.. "

" entah la..ego de kne mengena ngan takut ke..?

urm..aku tatau la..xkan ego kot..?

aku confius pule...

aku takut..dye x angkat..

aku pon takut dye tanak kwn da..

sape la aku..aku kn hanya kerusi.. "

" pegi mampos sama kau..

penakut..!!

c'mon la kikon..g cari dye blk..

kau kne cari dye gak..buat baru.. "

Learn it.Live it.Love it.

Kekal

2009-01-11T23:17:00.000-08:00

Isnin - Kolej Puncak - Uitm

" Mak..mama tau x jaa kt cni tekanan..

duit byk abis..makan kt cni mahal..

skarang sume bayar..keje x siap..

nk blk umah pon x dpt..

jd gyle kt cni tau x.."

re : Mama

" mggu ni blkla..duit ada lg x..?

krgkan hsp rokok..kete xda lg..susah skt.."

lepas txt mak aku..

aku rase mcm nak call n jerit je kat mama aku

" BIAR JAA MAMPUS JE LA KT SINI..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

huuuuu..aku sedih..1st tym aku ckp kt mak aku camtu..aku tau..even aku susah kt cni pon..famy aku kt sane pon susah jua..aku tanak jd selfish..tp plss la..aku pon nak kne hidup kt kolej ni jugak..sakit sial nk survive kt cni..tekanan yg melampau..aku nk give up je..susah nk hidup..td mak aku byk kali call aku..aku tanak angkat..aku takut aku akan jerit² kat mak aku..cukup la kt umah aku marah² mak aku..aku harap kt kolej ni bley la aku kurangkan dosa kt mak aku.mak aku asik call je..aku geram..aku skip klass..aku tanak kwn² aku tgk muke sedih aku n muke rimau aku..aku lepak je dlm bilik sorg²..aku tak tahan..aku nak jerit..aku da x dpt berfikir mcm org normal lg..aku rase cam nak pukul org je..aku tatau nape..aku pegi kat dashboard umah aku..aku tumbuk² sekuat hati..tp aku tetap x puas..aku cari locker bilik member aku..aku tumbuk² sekuat hati aku..aku da x tahan..rase nak nangis je..tp aku tahan air mata aku..aku teringat pasal smlm - Ahad..Youth Day 09 kt pwtc..

Ahad - PWTC - Youth Day09

syok gyle..siang tu kt pwtc aku merayap abis..aku jln² ngan membe baik aku..pastu kitorg stop kt kedai tatoo..aku ckp kt diorg aku nk buat tatoo..not permenant tatoo ok..diorg suruh aku buat tatoo rimau..sbb diorg ckp muke aku mcm rimau..so..aku attach tatoo rimau kt dada kiri aku..hurm..pastu turn membe aku plak..dye letak singa kt dada kiri dye..pastu name dye kt tangan kiri..pastu aku ckp kt akak tu aku pon nak attach gak kt tangan kiri..urm..akak tu tanye aku nak buat pe..aku cakap aku nk letak num..then she asked me wut numbers..?aku ckp kt akak tu aku nk bubuh num .437 kt nadi aku..urm..mase akak tu tgk spray kt nadi aku..dye de tanye..437 wut for..?awek ke..?aku juz senyum je kt dye n ckp " kisah lalu.. " akak tu nampak aku senyum then dye pon senyum gak..padahal aku da menangis da dlm hati..pastu akak tu tanye lg..nape kat nadi..?aku juz senyum..dlm hati aku.." byk tanye plak kau..sukati aku la..tu pon x dpt pk ke..?dye nyawe aku.. "aku teringat kate² aku..

" i'll save my life n love juz for u "

urm..then akak tu offer num fon kt flyers dye..klu rajin call la..dye ckp camtu..malas ah aku..xde mase..then mlm tu Bunkface perform..diorg main 6 lagu..lagu diorg layan abes sial..tym Bunkface perform tu aku da terpisah ngan membe² aku..aku ckp kt diorg aku nk mosh..diorg tanak sbb kitorg sume pakai slipa je..takut slipa putus..aku x kesah..aku pegi kt crowd..then aku mosh sekuat hati..sape dtg dkt aku..aku tumbuk..aku pon x kisah kne tumbuk..then last song..Situasi by Bunkface..crowd sume nyanyi..aku pon nyanyi skali..aku lompat² n tumbuk² org..

" dan bila kau menghilang

musnahlah musnah impian

tuk menggapai bintang terangi hidupku

ku mahu kau tahu

engkau lah destinasiku tuk menggapai bintang

terangi hidupku "

tym ni aku stop lompat² n tumbuk² org..aku jerit nyanyi part nih..jerit sekuat hati..aku pejam mata..aku perasan airmata aku keluar sikit..aku tanye diri aku..macammane aku nk jumpe dye..macammane aku nak cari dye..ouh God..help me..lepas tu aku tumbuk sape tah depan aku..dye x kesah..biase ah..gig en..then lagu habis..aku jerit lagi..pnat..sedih..geram..pastu aku g cari kwn² aku..aku control emosi aku..then kitorg buat sesi pornography kt ctu..malas aku nk upload pic..kitorg poyo² la tunjuk tatoo temporary tu..mlm tu tgk MU blasah Chelsea 3 - 0..ayam la chelsea..then tdo..aku mimpi..aku igt..aku mimpi pasal mati..aku prasan aku ngigau..aku sebut ALLAH 3 kali..aku takut..dlm mimpi tu..tatoo aku jd kekal..berdosenya aku..wut hv i done..

tercari²

2009-01-06T06:06:00.000-08:00

siang tercari²

malam termimpi²

diorg cakap aku da kurus..yeke..?urm....mmg aku da kurus..ye la kot..ahuhu..diorg ckp..aku kurus sbb patah hati..yeke..?urm..entah..tp aku still aku..

aku masih lagi macamni..poyo je..still mengharap pada sesuatu yg x pasti..aku x mengaharap sgt..aku still mencuba..setiap kali aku keluar mane² je..aku mesti tercari² si dia..bile malam je aku tido..mesti aku termimpi tentang dia..

siang tercari²

malam termimpi²

bile aku kt luar je.aku cam dapat rasekan yg dye ade je around aku..thats why aku selalu tercari²..then bile tido..of coz la mimpi..aku selalu jumpe dia..tp untuk sekejap saje..aku dapat rasekan..ade sesuatu yg dia nak beritahu aku..setiap minggu aku mesti mimpi n rasa yg dia nak bagitau aku sumthing..pasal ape..?entahla..then..ade satu hari tu..aku mimpi..dye call aku..dye cakap dye da lupekan aku..then dye trus hilang camtu je mcm mimpi² yg sebelomnya n macam 12.12.08..bagi aku..itu bukan mimpi ngeri..tp mimpi indah..kerna aku slalu berharap dpt jumpe dye..aku nk dgr gelak ketawa si dia..ouh Tuhan..ketemukan lah aku dengan si dia..urm..

aku de lepak ngan college girls aku..tetibe diorg ckp..

maria : kau ni jaa mesti pendengar yg setia kan..

kikon : mengape hah..?

maria : yela..aku tgk kt telinge kau de taik lalat..

kikon : yeke..?aku x pna tau pom..

maria : memang la ngeng sbb bende tu kt blakang telinga kau..

kikon : ouh yeke..haaa..

after that aku teringat dkat si dia..entah..aku teringat bibir dia..dekat sebelah tepi kiri mulut dia..hee..

i juz mish u la nyet~

My Odyssey

2008-12-28T15:27:00.000-08:00

This is my odyssey

this is my illusion

I’m lost in a dream of you and me

so caught up in confusion

When will love be immortal

and truth be pure and free?

I was born to find the light

this is my odyssey

This is my odyssey!

This is my odyssey

this is my illusion

I’m lost in a dream of you and me

so caught up in confusion

When will brothers stop the fight?

When will our minds be free?

I was born to find the light

this is my odyssey

This is my odyssey!

Sayang Abang

2008-12-27T15:20:00.000-08:00

Wwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrghhhhhhhhhasahahhamuahahuahuhaushdlasmasjdnkqwoij,..!!!!!!!!!!!

Xaxau gyle siiiaaaalllllllllll...!!
pnat gyyleeeeeeeeeeeeee..!!!
this is my odysee..!!!

Semlm mmg xkan dilupekan..birthday party abg ku yg 1st..Eram gold triangle..hee...1st tym aku celeb birthday dye..1st tym juge aku wish happy bufday kt eram..
skang life aku jd better..hubungan aku ngan abg² aku semakin erat..
suuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeeee...........!!!!!!!!!!!
gyle sial..
aku dpt merasakan aku ni masih lagi adik bongsu diorg even aku da ade 2 org adik..
heee..
huihuihui...
*POPcoholic rAwk.....!!!!!!!!!!!!

tatau nak ckp ape..thhxx kt korg sbb invite aku n accept my frens..
even the ladies r not so frenly..tp korg tetap cool...
mlm tu mmg aku all out..

To kimon n all POPcoholic members..
im so sorry...i can't join u guys at ' After Party '
the ladies need to go home..haaa..
rindu gyle after party kt umah eram nun..
ouh ya..rakan²..im not adan( 2nd Bro ) ok..stop calling me adan..i adik dye je ok..
tau la muke same..kate adik bradik ngoi...

Happy birthday to u Eram ( 1st Bro )..
Shweet 26..
bajet je..padahal da 28..
heee...
nn
happy birthday to u alip ( 3nd Bro )
shweet 24..
agagaga..
korg sume da tue da..
ahahhaa...

LOVE YOU ALL MY ABANGS

" I'm the voice from the planet of Liquid Skies to bring you the message
Come closer to the speakers so I can see the light in your eyes
I'm here to invite you on a journey to a planet of love and freedom
So relax your body and open your mind to the melody transmission
The melody is the only way to a shining planet of liquid skies
Come closer to the speakers so I can see the light in your eyes
C'mon dance with me and feel the rhythm take over your body
Follow me to the planet of liquid skies "

Only One

2008-12-25T17:44:00.000-08:00

We had a fight that day
Makes me feel so sad
And im so shame n scared
She'll leave me

She's my only one
I give her all my love
Even though she says no
I just go on and on

Everyday and every night
I just wanna hear her voice
And make sure that everything stays right

And everyday and every night
To dream of her is my delight

Oh dear how wonderful life would be
With you still in my heart
Oh dear how wonderful life would be
With you still in my dreams

And now you really left me
With no one to hold me
As time goes by I will drown

Mocca's songs are so understanding

2nd Combat VC Exclusive

2008-12-23T15:05:00.000-08:00

2nd Combat VC UiTM Student Project

From Left : Wanfie , Lead , Za'a

Video nih adalah assignment seniors aku mase aku sem 2 kt UiTM..aku dengan secara langsung nye pon terjebak la skali dalam pembikinan video ni..saje je nak tunjuk kat bloggers sume hasil daripada bdk² TEKA nih..semalam sembang² pasal film teringat pule kt VC nih..hihi..aku juga merupakan crew n talent dalam VC nih..sakit ouh..byk kenangan masa the making VC nih..tym 1st day shooting je..sume talent sakit prot..haha...wanfie , lead n me..sume sbb breakfast la nih..mkn hot dog taun ble tah..pnat mmg pnat la en..jadi talent lg pnat..ade yg salah landing la..ade yg salah lompat la..aku la yg byk salah..ahuhu..VC ni dibuat dlm mase 3 hari je..ok la..walaupun stunts dlm VC ni x mantap..tp kitorg berjaya gak buat..ahuhu..kesan daripada VC nih Wanfie patah tangan , Lead paru² berlubang tapi aku je yg xde pape..kebal babe..haha..xde la..ade la..tym kitorg cari lokasi..saje² test lompat² tangan aku termasuk paku..darah byk kuar..cool gyle..haa..mane tak nye..producer bagi kitorg 2 lapis je tilam..mane cukup..banyak kitorg jatuh mmg bukan atas tilam la..lokasi kitorg nih sume kitorg buat kt stadium shah alam nun..tempat fakulti lame kitorg..best la lelebih lg tym kitorg mosh ramai² skali ngan 2nd combat nye fans tgk da mcm yayasan johor pon ade..haha....lepak ngan team 2nd combat lagi..diorg ni vegetarian..tapi badan sume besar²..haha..pasni sem baru nih..tiba la pule giliran batch aku untuk buat VC..artis..?kitorg tatau lagi nk pilih sape..hope kitog dpt buat yang terbaik la..wish we luck guys..

Testing lompat kete nih..igt senang ke..byk kali gak la buat silap..haha..
kene practice dulu sblom lompat..

ni shot yg x jadi..
tgk tilam tu ade 2 je..da la nipis..
mane x patah² tulang kitorg..

Smart x stage yg kitorg design khas untuk VC nih....
straight x!!
tgh mosh tym nih..scene kitorg da abes en..
hardcore tym..

Pic kenangan ngan team 2nd combat n team production yg bekerjesame..

Kurakusrakus!

Perpisahan Ini - 1st Edition feat Aizat Amdan

learning to be strong

Parah parah~

My Black Star

Rehab

The other man

jiwa ini.

hanya kamu

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For the rest of my life.

Chemical antara kitaaa~

Takut TV

Talking to the moon

One Day , the BODY sembang wit the HEART.." When im hurts , the doctor will heals me , but when u hurt, who'se gonna heals u? "Then the HEART says ," I have to heal by myself~ "Then the BODY says , " FUCK YOU! " <-- (Joke)

Malapetaka

Love

Pemahaman itu penting.

Hide n Seek - FUCK UP.

Memory : The Brotherhood

Sometimes.

Sudah ditempahh...

saat ini ku cerita

The Road Not Taken

The Road Not Taken

Robert Frost.

derrr~~

Strange Survey.

For you~

hidup

♥ Nilai Kasih Sayang ♥

Ouh Bulan !

Love , Friendship & Tragedy.

Pon pon pata pon~

my love affairs ♥

still the same.

♥

Away~~

December

cepu cemas.

Kejutan O_o

Ada apa dengan nama o0o

Mes Square

SHOES.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Uhuk

Menggapai bintang.

12/10

Perah santan

i am a boyman

Zzz

rasa pedih tak terungkap

Raya

If i should die

change

"it is da'sweetest tyme when we became frens...but it change when it comes to b a special one..."

Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku..?

hanya kamu

Jangan lah

Saya suda senior weyh..hahah..

tak sangka..

Ahhhh...

Tagged by bdk PMR ~ amelia xp

geram

empty promises by manis

Cerita dongeng

Penat sudeyh~~

My baby

Sape nak belakon..!!

Katalog menantu

How jambus i are

rindu

Malam Laju

Bitter Farewell

Moss Agate

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Risalah Cinta - faly awook -

One Day , the BODY sembang wit the HEART..
" When im hurts , the doctor will heals me , but when u hurt, who'se gonna heals u? "
Then the HEART says ,
" I have to heal by myself~ "
Then the BODY says ,
" FUCK YOU! " <-- (Joke)